Since I came here. How are your guys 
The reason I didn't come here is that I was busy, but mostly because I have a girlfriend for a while, I still do (somehow). And I just didn't wanted to be tempt it, because it's going very great, until now...
There is something that happen to me lately, and I want it to talk about it. My father bought a house in the Caribbean, so here I am for the summer. My girlfriend was here for a couple of weeks and she just left.
I have met this guy (who lives here), and he is a friend, even if he is older then me. But one time we were at this party, and he came to me, drunk and told me that he loves me, I think he said that because I dance good and I'm good fun in a party, so I didn't take it as ''Love''. So after that we got to know eachother better, and sicne we always texting (every hour) and spending time together, and I realy like it, and I really really fancy him. But I kept it quiet... There was some tease here and there but hey the guy is straight, he had a girlfriend for a long time (now it's over). Anyway he met this girl and fuck her (she was in vacation here), he told me, but it was at the beginning of our friendship relation, I was a bit jalous, but didn't say anything about it.
A little over 2 weeks ago (before my girlfriend came) I spend a evening at his house, we got wasted and dance on old music from the 80's, I showed him a bit of dance move lol and at one point he took me and put me close to his body, holgind thight. I then try to kiss him, but he reject it... Last week-end, while my girl friend was here, we were in a bar and we drank again, he was drunk and he was getting very close to me and saying stuff, I said dont do that my girlfriend is here, so he told me to come to his house. So I brought my GF home (yeah I'm a asshole, I know) and went back to his place... he was in his bed kinda sleepy, so I got naked and jump next to him and hold him. He push me away but ask me to stay (wich I did, stupid me) nothing happen, I woke up my lips touching his back and smelling his skin (sooooooooooooooooooo nice)...
But Nothing else then that, and all that at the same time. But here is the problem, the girl he fucked is back here for him. Before she came he told me he was not very excited to see her and blablabla But she arrived yesterday and since he didn't write me or call me since yesterday, I even know they went to spend the day to this beautifull hotel in the Island next to where I am. I'm soooo sad, and so fucking weak, I hate myself cause I'm not a weak person. I dont even want to see him, I just wanna a go out of this Island, but I can't because I'm falling in love with him.. and there nothing I can do, but to listen to music and every love song seems to be writting for him.
I dont let show nothing to anyone, but I had to tell someone, it hurts, I'm watching the phone all the time, just hoping, God I'm stupid, I cant beleive myself
Cheers
The reason I didn't come here is that I was busy, but mostly because I have a girlfriend for a while, I still do (somehow). And I just didn't wanted to be tempt it, because it's going very great, until now...
There is something that happen to me lately, and I want it to talk about it. My father bought a house in the Caribbean, so here I am for the summer. My girlfriend was here for a couple of weeks and she just left.
I have met this guy (who lives here), and he is a friend, even if he is older then me. But one time we were at this party, and he came to me, drunk and told me that he loves me, I think he said that because I dance good and I'm good fun in a party, so I didn't take it as ''Love''. So after that we got to know eachother better, and sicne we always texting (every hour) and spending time together, and I realy like it, and I really really fancy him. But I kept it quiet... There was some tease here and there but hey the guy is straight, he had a girlfriend for a long time (now it's over). Anyway he met this girl and fuck her (she was in vacation here), he told me, but it was at the beginning of our friendship relation, I was a bit jalous, but didn't say anything about it.
A little over 2 weeks ago (before my girlfriend came) I spend a evening at his house, we got wasted and dance on old music from the 80's, I showed him a bit of dance move lol and at one point he took me and put me close to his body, holgind thight. I then try to kiss him, but he reject it... Last week-end, while my girl friend was here, we were in a bar and we drank again, he was drunk and he was getting very close to me and saying stuff, I said dont do that my girlfriend is here, so he told me to come to his house. So I brought my GF home (yeah I'm a asshole, I know) and went back to his place... he was in his bed kinda sleepy, so I got naked and jump next to him and hold him. He push me away but ask me to stay (wich I did, stupid me) nothing happen, I woke up my lips touching his back and smelling his skin (sooooooooooooooooooo nice)...
But Nothing else then that, and all that at the same time. But here is the problem, the girl he fucked is back here for him. Before she came he told me he was not very excited to see her and blablabla But she arrived yesterday and since he didn't write me or call me since yesterday, I even know they went to spend the day to this beautifull hotel in the Island next to where I am. I'm soooo sad, and so fucking weak, I hate myself cause I'm not a weak person. I dont even want to see him, I just wanna a go out of this Island, but I can't because I'm falling in love with him.. and there nothing I can do, but to listen to music and every love song seems to be writting for him.
I dont let show nothing to anyone, but I had to tell someone, it hurts, I'm watching the phone all the time, just hoping, God I'm stupid, I cant beleive myself
Cheers
