This is going to sound strange, but I am pretty much 100% gay but I still find cocks a turn on. I used to have relationships with boys when i was younger many years ago, and had great sex too, but when I discovered women, I then discovered that I was much less turned on by men. I have just come out of a long-term gay relationship and have been thinking of perhaps trying sex again with a man, mainly because although i prefer women, I still wonder what it would be like to be with a man again - it's been about 12 years since I last slept with a man. I can say hand on heart I will not be 'converted' back again...I am just turned on by the idea of a cock, probably the fantasy of it has built up over the years if I am honest. The problem is although I am extremely confident around women, I would be so nervous around a man. I think I would be able to handle a spur of the moment sex-only encounter, but the thought of having to go through the whole exchanging of looks, chat-up thing in a bar (or wherever) with a man feels so alien to me. Also just how pissed off would a man be if when it came down to it I felt that I did not want full sex or something? What if I didn't even feel like kissing him (oh my god, stubble!) but felt that I could give him a handjob or something? Would a man find that strange? I guess the logical answer to arranging a no-strings liaison would be the internet (I'm not advertising right now!), but then I would be faced with fears about the person I was meeting - they would be a complete stranger and I am not sure I would feel safe. Or maybe I just need to find a man in my circle of friends who I can be honest with and just say I want to experiment a bit, are you up for it? Would a man think I was dirty/slutty if I took the honest approach? I know I sound pathetic and confused...but that is because I am!