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I have not been penetrated in close to a decade. I think it is a "trust issue", but lately, I don't even know what is coming over me, lately, I think about it a lot.
I know it is a lot of prep work and watching what food you eat and cleaning and things, but more than anything, I feel like it is a trust issue...not wanting to just be pounded and then, they never see you again. That is what happened the last time. He was a hot guy with a big cock and I am still amazed he charmed his way into my ass, but he did and then, disappeared. I've tried to talk to him on different apps since, but he never responds, which makes me feel gross.
I would like to trust someone to not do that again, but the "animal" part of me just wants someone to come to my place in NYC and pin me down, kiss me passionately and slide it in and not stop until he's finishing inside me.
I am also mildly worried about size. I don't want the smallest of cocks inside me, because what is the fun in that...but I also am terrified that I won't be able to walk straight for a week with the big guys.
Looking for answers and possible solutions, please.
I know it is a lot of prep work and watching what food you eat and cleaning and things, but more than anything, I feel like it is a trust issue...not wanting to just be pounded and then, they never see you again. That is what happened the last time. He was a hot guy with a big cock and I am still amazed he charmed his way into my ass, but he did and then, disappeared. I've tried to talk to him on different apps since, but he never responds, which makes me feel gross.
I would like to trust someone to not do that again, but the "animal" part of me just wants someone to come to my place in NYC and pin me down, kiss me passionately and slide it in and not stop until he's finishing inside me.
I am also mildly worried about size. I don't want the smallest of cocks inside me, because what is the fun in that...but I also am terrified that I won't be able to walk straight for a week with the big guys.
Looking for answers and possible solutions, please.