Every girl I've ever been with told me I was the largest she'd been with, and of course, I always loved that (who wouldn't?). And at the age of 38, I guess I've been lucky because I've never had my heart broken. Until now.
This year, a younger girl I'd been seeing for about a year and a half broke up with me. She was freshly divorced, two kids, and frankly, she's got some emotional/mental issues that she needs to deal with. Like a big, dumb, moron, I fell for this little 27 year old hottie and loved her kids like they were my own. Since we broke up in April, she's basically fed me bread crumbs, not ruling out getting back together, but not ruling it in either. Finally, a couple weeks ago, I found out she was with a new guy and was lying to me about it. I put her out of my life at that point, but the pain is excruciating, to say the least. Not to mention all three of us work at the same company, so I can't even totally get her out of my mind at work (luckily we seldon cross paths).
One thing about it, the sex was unbelievable. Girls her age apparently grew up on porn (unlike girls when I was in school), and she was the most sexual girl I've ever been with. Not only that, but she was the first girl I've been with capable of repeated multiple orgasms just from penetration - she could have 20-25 orgasms in one session. We attributed it to my size and the curvature I have which hit her G-Spot just right, because she said she'd never been able to do that before me. I don't need to tell you how awesome that made me feel! I'd rather give a girl an orgasm than orgasm myself, so sexually, we were both in heaven. It was the other pressures of our relationship that killed us.
Now, I'm left crushed, wondering if she'll have sex like that again, but more importantly, if I'll ever have sex like that again. Every night I listen to "Love Line" and hear how MOST women can't orgasm from penetration alone, and I realize I'm likely to never have a sexual relationship like that again. (Of course, the nasty side of me thinks that statistically, she's not likely to be with a guy my size again either).
I don't know ... I'm just venting. Sadly, I know our relationship was based primarily on sex, and that's no foundation for a lasting relationship, but it's still left me crushed and in despair.
Thanks for listening.
Eisenhower
This year, a younger girl I'd been seeing for about a year and a half broke up with me. She was freshly divorced, two kids, and frankly, she's got some emotional/mental issues that she needs to deal with. Like a big, dumb, moron, I fell for this little 27 year old hottie and loved her kids like they were my own. Since we broke up in April, she's basically fed me bread crumbs, not ruling out getting back together, but not ruling it in either. Finally, a couple weeks ago, I found out she was with a new guy and was lying to me about it. I put her out of my life at that point, but the pain is excruciating, to say the least. Not to mention all three of us work at the same company, so I can't even totally get her out of my mind at work (luckily we seldon cross paths).
One thing about it, the sex was unbelievable. Girls her age apparently grew up on porn (unlike girls when I was in school), and she was the most sexual girl I've ever been with. Not only that, but she was the first girl I've been with capable of repeated multiple orgasms just from penetration - she could have 20-25 orgasms in one session. We attributed it to my size and the curvature I have which hit her G-Spot just right, because she said she'd never been able to do that before me. I don't need to tell you how awesome that made me feel! I'd rather give a girl an orgasm than orgasm myself, so sexually, we were both in heaven. It was the other pressures of our relationship that killed us.
Now, I'm left crushed, wondering if she'll have sex like that again, but more importantly, if I'll ever have sex like that again. Every night I listen to "Love Line" and hear how MOST women can't orgasm from penetration alone, and I realize I'm likely to never have a sexual relationship like that again. (Of course, the nasty side of me thinks that statistically, she's not likely to be with a guy my size again either).
I don't know ... I'm just venting. Sadly, I know our relationship was based primarily on sex, and that's no foundation for a lasting relationship, but it's still left me crushed and in despair.
Thanks for listening.
Eisenhower
. In the meantime my grown daughter has helped me deal with the tough time and even told me that there are "good women out there". I took a chance and actually found a woman that is better than the ex wife in every way...
