I have always been unflappably secure and not jealous at all in relationshps. Ive never worried about the things a woman has done, or all the guys she knows.
Now I am dating a woman with a very extensive sexual history that I love very much. From time to time, it fucks me up to think about her past. She says that she loves me more than any predecessor, and I have nothing to worry about. The sex we have is by far and away better than I have ever had before, and she volunteers the same opinion. She is also a great caring person and a lot of fun to be around. Im crazy about this girl, but her past is making me crazier.
I hate that her myspace picture is of us together. Why? Because there is a bunch of guys on her friends list that she has fucked and sucked, and now Im the sucker loving her. All those guys had her like it was nothing, and I cherish her so much, its painful to think about. The head she so lovingly and amazingly gives to me, she also gave to random dorks she just met. Shouldnt that hurt? Why does it bother me so much to know she threw herself at so many tools just for fun, or lack of self respect? Everything we have means so much to me, and she means so much to me, why do I bother thinking about the amount of guys out there that have fucked her like she was nothing to them? How could I ever marry a woman who will make me the laughing stock of tons of guys who she sucked and swallowed at random?
I really need some advice on how to think of things differently to help me get past this, or if I should just cut and run to save any further damage.
Please help me with MY problem, I know its mine and not hers.
Now I am dating a woman with a very extensive sexual history that I love very much. From time to time, it fucks me up to think about her past. She says that she loves me more than any predecessor, and I have nothing to worry about. The sex we have is by far and away better than I have ever had before, and she volunteers the same opinion. She is also a great caring person and a lot of fun to be around. Im crazy about this girl, but her past is making me crazier.
I hate that her myspace picture is of us together. Why? Because there is a bunch of guys on her friends list that she has fucked and sucked, and now Im the sucker loving her. All those guys had her like it was nothing, and I cherish her so much, its painful to think about. The head she so lovingly and amazingly gives to me, she also gave to random dorks she just met. Shouldnt that hurt? Why does it bother me so much to know she threw herself at so many tools just for fun, or lack of self respect? Everything we have means so much to me, and she means so much to me, why do I bother thinking about the amount of guys out there that have fucked her like she was nothing to them? How could I ever marry a woman who will make me the laughing stock of tons of guys who she sucked and swallowed at random?
I really need some advice on how to think of things differently to help me get past this, or if I should just cut and run to save any further damage.
Please help me with MY problem, I know its mine and not hers.