I do not know how to deal with this. I don't know why I am so hated and envied by so many women. It's happened all my life growing up. Compared to other women in this world that are beautiful I am nothing, I have nothing like them yet most of them hate me? Even dudes that liked me were jealous and always abused me. They weren't boyfriends they were just boys at school and they treated other women so well I got treated like shit apparently because I was walking around thinking I was all that? It's usually a racial thing as well black women hate me. Either they adored me alot and not because of my personality but because I was mixed? But mostly black women hate me even more. I am so hurt by this, they hate me because I am a hybrid/mixed race. They always told me "oh you think you're the shit because of your hair?" It's fucking hair!! >_> They hated me because my nose is thinner and my skin is lighter (almost white) and I don't talk uneducated with broken english. It goes even more deeper than that it's like if I don't listen to Pdiddy or Rhianna that I am an outcast. For crying outloud it's just music! They always called me little white girl I catch hell from the black side of my family. I am just skin and bones like anybody else? I mean shit I am not Halle Berry she should be envied by many, compared to me I am just a mere girl that has nothing. I don't know how to do deal with the bullshit. Does any other girl here feel the same way?