I have known im gay since I was a teen . However, Ive only sucked a few guys off. I just don't get super excited like the guys who goes down on me get. I just feels like a chore to me. Does any other gays feel like this? Could it be that I just dont like the guys I end up with, most of which are fairly small ? Maybe I just need a big one lol. I do like porn, maybe thats skewing my perception and making it more difficult to get excited over an average man? Im usually just going thru the motions, it feels selfish.