Hi, I've been able to selfsuck since is was a teenager and I've only ever done it online with people I've cammed with, no one in real life. So, I have been chatting to a guy at work for a few weeks and he's really cool, straight, 22 I think and all the girls like him cause he's goodlooking and has amazing blue eyes, but I don't really fancy him, just find him really easy to talk to about anything. So last week we were talking about porn and sex and stuff at lunch like you do, and he mentioned one of his band mates has a massive cock. And I said how much I like huge ones. He was really open about talking to a gay guy about stuff and I suddenly felt I could actually tell him about my ability. I don't know why but I just felt an overwhelming urge to tell him, like it was a huge secret I had to get out. So I told him there was something I wanted to tell him but I was not sure how he would react or whether I should. Well, by the end of the day I did tell him and he was like, 'no fucking way! That's amazing' and then we had to go. Of course that night I was so fucking turned on that someone in the real world knew, that I was sucking it like a mad man and as soon as I came I came crashing back to reality and couldn't believe that I've actually told someone I can suck my own cock! I mean it's not your average work friend discussion - and now I'm paranoid that all he will/can think of me is as the guy at work who can suck himself off. I feel really close to him and I very rarely have that with other men and I really value his friendship, the way he doesn't judge me cause I'm gay and can talk to me about anything but now I feel I might have ruined that connection we had. Part of me thinks I'm over reacting and he'll just think it's cool that I can do it. I'm not particularly proud of it, in fact it kind of goes against my personality as I'm a huge romantic and really shy about sex stuff normally. But the bigger part of me thinks I have made things weird between us. Sorry for rambling on! I think I just needed to vent out some brain gravy. Just wondered what advice anyone would give on how I should try and make light of it all and not let this dominate my thoughts when I'm with him. Thanks for reading if I could be bothered! Something I forgot to mention - I've made a video clip of me at it and I'm considering showing him. Is this impending disaster or just showing off to a willing audience?!