I feel this post fits here simply because it's a big issue when thinking about relationships. I'm not going to go too deep into this, at first (kind of depends on how people respond... and hahaha about how that fits in with this post). I don't feel like I'm accomplishing anything worthwhile unless I'm doing it alongside someone else. Even with my art. If it's just for me, it's wasted time. Nothing holds my intestest, even things I enjoy doing, unless I'm enjoying them with another person. Without the company, I find myself unmotivated to do ANYTHING, including working on this problem (don't suggest a shrink, as I don't have the money to see one anymore). So yea, that's something that annoys me about myself that I lack the motivation to fix. It's an excuse I've used for myself for years - "If I don't have a boyfriend then what's the point in trying?" and things along those lines. I also lack ANY local friends (though I have a huge amount of online friends I keep in constant contact with, which counts for something). That means, I have no actual social interaction outside of work (in which I hate everyone but have to act fake so I don't get fired). My only reason for getting into school was to have "something more to offer" in a relationship.