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Hi. It's taken me all day to sit down and write this, primarily because I'm a little embarrassed, admittedly. That said, I just ask that anyone who comments to please be kind and not respond with anything rude. Thank you.
I'm not confident that I would be a good kisser. Perhaps I overthink it, but maybe I should be thinking more about it. I found a forum on another website wherein women were laughing at the idea of a man not being experienced with other women, prior to approaching them. I think it's a sensitive issue and more men than just myself are inexperienced in their 20s; either because they're not ready or just haven't found anyone they've taken interested in. Some are religious and wait until marriage, but for me? Aside from not really knowing how I felt about anyone in high school, I was more or less concerned with keeping myself alive. My thoughts were too focused on suicide and keeping myself living to the point that, well, how could I possibly expect to care for someone else when I very well couldn't care for myself?
Anyway, I've no doubt sex is an awkward, stressful situation the first time -- it's probably worse when you're in your 20s and everyone makes a big deal about how you should've done in 10 or so years ago. It's a peculiar mentality to have, but whatever. I didn't judge people in school for having sex -- I wish I could've -- but part of me has always figured waiting would be better; mentally, emotionally and hopefully in terms of relationship status. I've read a lot about the female anatomy and specifics on what...you know, gets a woman off. That's at least one good thing about me, compared to the boneheads that hop into bed and expect any woman to be satisfied by random thrusting.
The one thing that truly worries me is kissing. I know guys are supposed to go in 90% and the woman is supposed to go 10%, or whatever percentage nonsense all the guy videos explain, but sometimes it's not really just a slow, perfect setup. How are you supposed to anticipate where your partner's lips will be, or how much tongue they use? I've freeze-framed virtually every romantic comedy I could find and I've tried researching this crap online. I just feel so, so stupid. I don't ask any women out because 1. How do you not disappoint anyone these days? and 2. I just want to make sure there's something.. I don't know.. memorable about that first kiss?
Again, this is all very embarrassing. I'm sure the worries of sex and kissing are somehow different for women, but all the advice I'd gotten from men seemed smug and.. not "toxic" per se, but the stereotypical masculine act was definitely taking away from the real, man-to-man discussion about women; so I figured I ought to ask women what they'd expect and how they'd want to be kissed and how to actually be positively effective at it.
I realize this post is all over the place and likely not well written -- chalk it up to feeling indescribably embarrassed and utterly perplexed.
Thank you for taking the time to read this.
I'm not confident that I would be a good kisser. Perhaps I overthink it, but maybe I should be thinking more about it. I found a forum on another website wherein women were laughing at the idea of a man not being experienced with other women, prior to approaching them. I think it's a sensitive issue and more men than just myself are inexperienced in their 20s; either because they're not ready or just haven't found anyone they've taken interested in. Some are religious and wait until marriage, but for me? Aside from not really knowing how I felt about anyone in high school, I was more or less concerned with keeping myself alive. My thoughts were too focused on suicide and keeping myself living to the point that, well, how could I possibly expect to care for someone else when I very well couldn't care for myself?
Anyway, I've no doubt sex is an awkward, stressful situation the first time -- it's probably worse when you're in your 20s and everyone makes a big deal about how you should've done in 10 or so years ago. It's a peculiar mentality to have, but whatever. I didn't judge people in school for having sex -- I wish I could've -- but part of me has always figured waiting would be better; mentally, emotionally and hopefully in terms of relationship status. I've read a lot about the female anatomy and specifics on what...you know, gets a woman off. That's at least one good thing about me, compared to the boneheads that hop into bed and expect any woman to be satisfied by random thrusting.
The one thing that truly worries me is kissing. I know guys are supposed to go in 90% and the woman is supposed to go 10%, or whatever percentage nonsense all the guy videos explain, but sometimes it's not really just a slow, perfect setup. How are you supposed to anticipate where your partner's lips will be, or how much tongue they use? I've freeze-framed virtually every romantic comedy I could find and I've tried researching this crap online. I just feel so, so stupid. I don't ask any women out because 1. How do you not disappoint anyone these days? and 2. I just want to make sure there's something.. I don't know.. memorable about that first kiss?
Again, this is all very embarrassing. I'm sure the worries of sex and kissing are somehow different for women, but all the advice I'd gotten from men seemed smug and.. not "toxic" per se, but the stereotypical masculine act was definitely taking away from the real, man-to-man discussion about women; so I figured I ought to ask women what they'd expect and how they'd want to be kissed and how to actually be positively effective at it.
I realize this post is all over the place and likely not well written -- chalk it up to feeling indescribably embarrassed and utterly perplexed.
Thank you for taking the time to read this.