Pieterjoke,
Re: your last post (the one two up from this one), in which you said you had a hard time seeing the positive side of bisexuality. (I also gather you 'tested' out at 50/50.) --
I am really, really interested in why you feel that way.
I myself consider myself bisexual, too (83/17 straight/gay, according to this test). I have in the past felt REALLY confused and torn about my bisexual feelings. This was when I seriously wondered whether my 'predominant' self-identification (to myself & most of the rest of the world) as straight was/was not accurate.
Now, however, after having lived most of my adult life as a straight man, in the straight world, but with fairly regular gay fantasies and occasional gay hookups (no gay relationship(s), yet at least), I don't feel as troubled by it, and am fairly accepting of myself for who I am.
My major continuing point of stress is that I do wish society were more accepting of people like me. That is, while it is today relatively easy (compared to the past) to live one's life as openly gay, and of course it is easy to identify as a straight person, it is NOT so easy to live, as I have, in the fully heterosexual world but with gay feelings (and hookups) on the side. I have felt the need to keep my 'gay' side private and separate from the straight side of me that is, yes, dominant in me -- but nevertheless not the complete picture.
It would be nice, for example, to be able to confide in my wife that I continue to have active gay feelings (and liasons), rather than come close to the line but not cross it (i.e., I've told her I 'sometimes' have 'passing' gay thoughts and that I 'messed around a little' a 'very long time ago")
I suppose at 80/20, I may not be as fully conflicted as you are at 50/50, but I do understand how this bisexual identity can be stressful. On the one hand, I like it, because I feel it has made me a broader, fuller sexual person -- but on the other, I do not like having to keep part of my sexuality secret from the people closest to me and society at large.
Am I nuts, or does this resonate with others, too?
Though it doesn't chime with my own percentage assessment, I think partly because one or two flings with women still required me to say that in the past I'd mostly been attracted to/had sex with e.t.c. to the same sex and not exclusively so. I found it hard to say which gender I wanted to be attracted to in future, because I don't have a need to force myself to believe that my sexuality is set in stone.
