I've been confused for a very long time really. For starters, I've never had a girlfriend or a boyfriend, but the desires are still there. I noticed that I wasn't 100% straight when I thought a guy was very attractive freshmen year. Question #1: Do most gay men start off with only physical attractions? When I picture myself with a guy and with a girl, I can only see myself w/ the girl. With the guy, kissing hugging holding just doesn't click, but thoughts of performing fellatio are arousing. Question #2: Is it possible to have sexuality affected by porn? The only reason i question this is because i'm attracted to only 1 kind of person type. They must be white, skinny to muscular, brown or black hair, and blue or green eyes. What causes me to think porn may of had something to do with this is because that is the sexual icon in my head. I reviewed all the porn i mostly watched and that description fit all of them. Lastly, if anyone could relate, i'd love input. When i'm behind the computer screen my mind wanders about gay things and less about women. In public i only really notice good looking guys, but when gay men hit on me i feel disgusted. I usually laugh and walk away but I dont understand why it isnt arousing. I've had people who i usually think are hot talk to me and seem interested but the desire to make anything of it simply isnt there. I just need help figuring myself out. I'm not afraid of being gay I just WANT to be able to say I'm blah.