I’m in an open relationship and have been for a while, I enjoy the freedom to get with other guys when I get the urge but the more I’ve been with other guys the more it’s made me question whether my bf is the right person for me for the really long term. My life is also complicated by the fact that I’ve been messing around with my best friend for over 3 years now who says he’s straight but is definitely bi and has a long term gf - the sex is great and he 100% has proper feelings for me but even if he left his gf I wouldn’t want to be in a relationship with him.
I see my straight friends all getting married and having kids and leading these wholesome lives and over the past few months I feel like more and more inferior in like they’re so happy and doing all this stuff and I’m just going around sucking random dudes dicks and getting fucked up the ass. Don’t get me wrong I love that at the time but afterwards I just feel like not totally fulfilled in life.
Btw I’m totally comfortable being gay and would never change that. I just feel like I want something more now than what I have and have had in the past but being gay I’m at a loss to know how to make that happen.
Sorry if that’s really rambly but just looking for some advice on where to go and what to do.
I see my straight friends all getting married and having kids and leading these wholesome lives and over the past few months I feel like more and more inferior in like they’re so happy and doing all this stuff and I’m just going around sucking random dudes dicks and getting fucked up the ass. Don’t get me wrong I love that at the time but afterwards I just feel like not totally fulfilled in life.
Btw I’m totally comfortable being gay and would never change that. I just feel like I want something more now than what I have and have had in the past but being gay I’m at a loss to know how to make that happen.
Sorry if that’s really rambly but just looking for some advice on where to go and what to do.