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Hello people,
It's been a while I have always wanted to post in this forum, hoping that you will help me get my mind clear.
As soon as I have time I will get verified and present myself.
I am a 23yo straight man.
My life has been characterised by many delusions received from all the girls for whom I have felt something and have had attraction. Especially during puberty and growing up as a teenager I wasn't that cute, and I have always been chubby with the typical unexercised belly. Female friends and even the girls with whom I was flirting pointed out only my flaws.
All the insults, delusions and comparison to other guys have caused me to still have a very low self-esteem, even though I have female friends and even acquaintances (both m and f) that tell me I am handsome and that it's just myself that holds me back to approach girls.
However, the picture I have of myself does not change.
I am still chubby and even though I train, I can't manage to get a sculpted body with abs.
Because of fear of rejection, I do not try to approach a girl that easily anymore, I tend to wait for one to do a step forward. This is why I am still a virgin, I have only done foreplay with girls when drunk in discos or at house parties. When I am drunk I am also a totally different person and I tend to flirt with any single attractive girl in the room, without thinking of rejection. However, my drunk self tends to stop itself when about to fuck because I am quite old-fashioned and would like to enjoy (and remember) my first time with a girl I have feelings for (not gonna start talking about it cause I have been in love with my best female friend for 6 years even though she had a boyfriend, pointed out some of my flaws and even rejected me about an year ago).
By the way, the point of this post is another.
When I look at guys that have a nice body, with defined muscles, sometimes I tend to have an erection, even when I watch muscular guys in porn with girls or when they are masturbating with their partner on cam. I feel like that it is caused by the "admiration" and willingness to have that body. Moreover, I do not have any sort of sexual attraction towards those guys, but the boners or the increase in boner intensity confuse me.
I only want to sleep with girls and date girls and even if I think about it, I would never like to have sex with a man or date one. The maximum I would push myself to do is having a wanking buddy with whom jerk off together and even each other.
What do you think? Maybe if one day I will manage to get that nice body this will stop, or do you think it's something different?
I hope you take this seriously and that you can help me!
Thank you all and I hope that your life has not been affected negatively by COVID-19 whatsoever.
It's been a while I have always wanted to post in this forum, hoping that you will help me get my mind clear.
As soon as I have time I will get verified and present myself.
I am a 23yo straight man.
My life has been characterised by many delusions received from all the girls for whom I have felt something and have had attraction. Especially during puberty and growing up as a teenager I wasn't that cute, and I have always been chubby with the typical unexercised belly. Female friends and even the girls with whom I was flirting pointed out only my flaws.
All the insults, delusions and comparison to other guys have caused me to still have a very low self-esteem, even though I have female friends and even acquaintances (both m and f) that tell me I am handsome and that it's just myself that holds me back to approach girls.
However, the picture I have of myself does not change.
I am still chubby and even though I train, I can't manage to get a sculpted body with abs.
Because of fear of rejection, I do not try to approach a girl that easily anymore, I tend to wait for one to do a step forward. This is why I am still a virgin, I have only done foreplay with girls when drunk in discos or at house parties. When I am drunk I am also a totally different person and I tend to flirt with any single attractive girl in the room, without thinking of rejection. However, my drunk self tends to stop itself when about to fuck because I am quite old-fashioned and would like to enjoy (and remember) my first time with a girl I have feelings for (not gonna start talking about it cause I have been in love with my best female friend for 6 years even though she had a boyfriend, pointed out some of my flaws and even rejected me about an year ago).
By the way, the point of this post is another.
When I look at guys that have a nice body, with defined muscles, sometimes I tend to have an erection, even when I watch muscular guys in porn with girls or when they are masturbating with their partner on cam. I feel like that it is caused by the "admiration" and willingness to have that body. Moreover, I do not have any sort of sexual attraction towards those guys, but the boners or the increase in boner intensity confuse me.
I only want to sleep with girls and date girls and even if I think about it, I would never like to have sex with a man or date one. The maximum I would push myself to do is having a wanking buddy with whom jerk off together and even each other.
What do you think? Maybe if one day I will manage to get that nice body this will stop, or do you think it's something different?
I hope you take this seriously and that you can help me!
Thank you all and I hope that your life has not been affected negatively by COVID-19 whatsoever.