Spladle said:
*ahem*
Spladle said:
Stop being a little bitch and post already. I don't recall anyone ever having been chastisized for talking about their drug use on the boards before.
See Etc form thread: I'd like your opinion.
Alright. I'll play along. I heard on this talk show a long time ago that if you eat 20 pills you get holes in your brain. I don't recall what talk show. I don't remember who said it. So I kept track of what pills I ate, how many, where, what time...blah blah. I wrote them all down and I still have the book, even wrote what parties I was at. My raver name (oh, gawd) was Serenity. I'll still be out at a club and have a kid come up to me saying "Hi, Serenity." They'll reintroduce themselves as "Remember me? They called me Knowledge/Crayola/Skittles/Carebear/Angel/Dub/Spacemonkey/Elmo/Blue"
I seriously knew people with each of those names...lol and still do. Anywho, I lost count around 50 or so. I rolled probably between 50-80 times over the course of four years. The feeling just isn't the same now. Especially after working so closely in the mental health field.
I absolutely
cannot do mushrooms, because I sit there and think "I've purposefully induced paranoid schizophrenia and now I'm stuck this way. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck." If I roll, I think too much about what it's doing to my brain, what chemicals are being released, why my jaw is cleanching, etc...As opposed to when I too it when I was 16 and just didn't know wtf was up. I think the last time I ate a pill was about...six months ago. It was a rather week pill and the come down was just horrendous. We WERE out of orange juice though, which would have drastically helped things along.
It really boils down to "It doesn't feel the same" but that's nothing to do with tolerance. It's something else.
It could also be that I was taking it in my teenage years, when my body wasn't fully developed yet. There were different hormones and chemicals in my body..I derno
rant rant