Here's what's happening in my life right now: I'm 19 years old and a freshman in his second semester of college. I just moved out of the dorms at the tech school which I attend and have moved in at home to become a commuter (since I only have classes 2 days each week plus I wanna find a job at home). I haven't had a relationship since I was 16 and 17 years old...so it's been 2 years. In TWO YEARS i havent had any sex whatsoever, haven't even kissed a girl. Sure, I got school and soon work on my plate, but it's been so long since I've felt the warm touch of a girl. I feel like I'm incapable of love. Sure, the hormones are raging and I do miss the sex, but at the same time I miss it all...cuddling, holding, hanging out, havin a best friend, kisses, passion, etc. My last (and first) real relationship lasted 6 months, a decent length of time. It had it's ups and downs, but ended on a bad note and I rarely if ever talk to my ex anymore. In a way I definately learned a lot and have moved on from this, but at the same time i kinda feel like that experience short-changed me. I look at girls in a new light now...I'm not always fun, easy-going and playful around them like I used to be, I only warm up to them when they show interest and that they're nice/friendly/laid back/etc. In a way, I guess you could say I'm paranoid
Since that relationship ended and I've decided to go "hunt" and "get back into the game" I searched around online and found the seduction websites w/tips and guidlines. I've never been good with women...I humbly admit that I find myself to be attractive (work out, well built) and so I've never approached too many girls, all the girls i've gone after showed keen interest in me beforehand. And on the other hand, I feel like i'm thinking and trying too hard- love seems to just come when you least expect it. Other times I blame my lonliness on fate- cuz a good portion of it is luck...being in the right place at the right time, being surrounded by plenty of girls, etc. Since I attend a small school (will be transfering next year from the tech) I think this plays a fairly big role...Im goin job huntin tomorrow so i'm just hoping to extend and meet new people through working too.
Ahh that was quite a ramble and IDK what I'm really seeking from this post...besides sympathy lol jk...but maybe someone can relate to my situation? I think it's pretty uncommon so I just wanted to know if anybody has gone through something similar, at my age, i guess that would be comforting. And any tips/comments/suggestions is always appreciated...peace and thanx
Since that relationship ended and I've decided to go "hunt" and "get back into the game" I searched around online and found the seduction websites w/tips and guidlines. I've never been good with women...I humbly admit that I find myself to be attractive (work out, well built) and so I've never approached too many girls, all the girls i've gone after showed keen interest in me beforehand. And on the other hand, I feel like i'm thinking and trying too hard- love seems to just come when you least expect it. Other times I blame my lonliness on fate- cuz a good portion of it is luck...being in the right place at the right time, being surrounded by plenty of girls, etc. Since I attend a small school (will be transfering next year from the tech) I think this plays a fairly big role...Im goin job huntin tomorrow so i'm just hoping to extend and meet new people through working too.
Ahh that was quite a ramble and IDK what I'm really seeking from this post...besides sympathy lol jk...but maybe someone can relate to my situation? I think it's pretty uncommon so I just wanted to know if anybody has gone through something similar, at my age, i guess that would be comforting. And any tips/comments/suggestions is always appreciated...peace and thanx