For those of you who might remember that before when I returned from Turkey, I went back with a Turkish guy who has been but romantic to me. But, he is also a big homophobic, which I am okay with, given with the homophobic culture too. So, I'm trying hard not to out. But yesterday, something devastating happened. After being very close, we're instantly best friends, and I'm okay with just being best friends since he is a very very nice friend, he found out I'm gay. He didn't reply my texts and pick up my calls. Then, I decided to come to his house, but the only thing I got was a kick in my ass out of his house. I have never been kicked out of someone's house before. It's sad, humiliating, and it's painful to write in here about it. But, I just need to talk to someone somewhere. I can't begin to describe how much close we were before, and how much we love each other as friends, and now I'm losing another one. I've already let him go. But I can't help but to regret the whole thing. Thanks for listening.