My first time doing anal was with a guy on Grindr. He was a lower batch in college, six inches shorter than me and discreet. I was inexperienced and stupid. I'd only done oral, and at that time, never hooked up with guys I actually found attractive.
This guy was attractive, not conventionally, but he was pretty much my type. Things happened fast and before I knew it, he was picking me up on campus and bringing me to his place.
We did it, I bottomed, I didn't clean beforehand and ended up getting shit on his thing. He was cool about it, we washed up and continued to do it. It felt good. But, then...
I accidentally said "I love this" and I think he thought I said "I love you" and well we still finished, but I could tell I messed up. He was a kind guy, so he still drove me back to campus. We even kissed before I got out of his car.
One day, we passed by each other in the halls. Being completely dumb, and completely attracted to the guy, I called out to him (WHILE HE WAS WITH HIS FRIENDS) and told him to call me. I didn't know that discreet gay hook ups had unspoken rules to never talk about it out in the open. We never spoke again.