Recently I decided that I was ready to lose my virginity to my (now ex) boyfriend, who happened to be a bit on the large size. It didn't feel good at all and hurt very, very badly. I was wondering, is it always like this? Does it ever get better? On a slightly off-topic note, he now has left me and I feel like an idiot for giving up something so "special" (I guess) to someone who was just lying to get in my pants. (I now know he goes through guys like underwear) If this is in the wrong section I apologize in advance.