Time for me to get cleaned-up a bit.
I can't deny I've been interested in a few guys, and one or two ladies, here. It takes a lot to pique my interest which is why I've likely never been in a romantic relationship. I'm ridiculously pleased to know that such guys exist out there, or at least, appear to. To have any interest, I have to have that ineffable spark go off in my heart while my mind wanders into more prurient territory. He's got to be smart and he has to be warmer than a cuddly puppy. Physical attraction is important, but I have this thing that the more I like someone, the better looking (to me) they get.
With all these people, I just feel something for them that immediately puts me at ease and makes me feel like a better person when I talk to them. On one occasion, those sparks turned into royal fireworks, but it was not to be and, most astonishingly to me, the guy turned into a fantastic friend who has given me the strength and wisdom to make some huge changes in my life, including coming out.
In alphabetical order:
bbucko - Genuine, warm, sharp as a razor, and just plain awesome to look at. It's an enormous privilege to have him as a friend because he doesn't waste time with people he doesn't care for. Uncle B is one of the few people I'd love to meet from here and he's one of the few people I know who can discuss BDSM on the same plane as I do with complete comfort. When we talk on the phone, hours pass like barrels over Niagara. There is something about talking to him that strenghtens me.
bigbull29 - My crush on BB is entirely fantastic and rightly so. He's just such a sweet guy and I've had the most wonderful encyclopedic conversations with him. I'm a sucker for furry blonds so that helps things along. We just get along so well that spending time with him is a genuine pleasure. There's a very warm and kind heart in him even if he doesn't always show it.
ClaireTalon - A hot woman who has enough firepower to level small third world nations is pretty damn sexy in my book. I love Claire's sensitive bullshit meter and her ability to take pride in her accomplishments without being boastful. She also has a wicked sense of humor. I truly admire her self-confidence and desire to live life to its fullest. The cherry on the top is her brilliant mind, fantastic eyes, and a great bust. If you ever got into trouble, Claire would kick ass and, most importantly, she'd stand by you to the end.
dannymawg - Danny's a lot of things, including very private. His sweetness is tempered by a wistful mode of expression that allows glimpses into the strong undercurrent of emotions that lie just beneath. I want nothing but love and happiness for Danny as he deserves it so much.
earllogjam - Without question, one of the wisest and kindest people I've ever had the privilege to know. Worse, he's startlingly good looking... and blond (sigh). Behind his quizzical posts is a man of remarkable intelligence and grace. He tends to be shy and private so the fact that I've been lucky enough to get to know him makes me feel honored. There's no way I could be going through this whole cancer thing without what Earl has taught me.
jeff black - Oh my! He may not be Tom Welling, but he's pretty close. He's not my type in the least but that ebullient mind and sharp wit just make me gush. Even when he's down, Jeff is up, and I admire that ability no end. All of that energy is tempered by a genuine openess of mind that allows everyone to feel like a friend. That's a great trait for anyone.
mercurialbliss - Brains and beauty garlanded by sophisticated intelligence and a genuine warmth. If I were straight, I'd be a homing missile because she'd make anyone an exceptional mate.
nakedwally - What shit life has handed Wally and yet he finds such joy in it all. He's the sweetest guy here, a lamb among lions. Yet another blond.... he's generally not my type either but his enormous heart and empathy just make me want to spend a few hours hugging him every day.
OCMuscleJock - That smile! That bearish bod! That license in massage therapy! Just an all-around awesome guy who I could cuddle with for hours and hours while sitting out on the deck watching the sunset over the Pacific.... oh yeah!
str82fuck - Simply adorable to look at and ever so sharp. We get along well and he's a happy guy. The rest is private so....
