A few minutes ago it occured to me to sign in here and see what was going on, after not having been on for 3 weeks (and having only logged on to check PMs for a while before that). I never before realised how much LPSG knows about me. I've basically chronicled a good deal of my young adult life on here, in only a relatively small amount of posts. Despite how my perception of myself and the world around me have changed since I joined, I can't help but feel like I don't really know anything more that I did before. When I joined I was a bisexual male. Then I was a bisexual male with hormone complications. Now I'm intersexed. And yet, I'm still...me. I act the same, feel the same, love the same, which brings me to the conclusion of - why the hell have I wasted so much time listening to people tell me what I am, when I've known myself better than they ever could all along? It seems like what should be a process of learning and discovery has only shown me that...well, I am who I am, and nothing's changing that. I don't have the slightest clue where I'm going with this, but I just really need to post something right now. I can't stand second guessing and not feeling as if I truly know anything. Meanwhile, I'm still trying to grasp the reigns and start leading my life for myself. That's not to say I don't feel content (nay, ecstatic) with how my life is right now, I just don't feel as if I'm in control, and frankly, that frightens me. This should be the 5934089234807120484th time I've poured my heart out to LPSG. Can any older users help me out?