Thanks everyone for all your help. After reading everyone's replies so far I agree with hilaire. I agree that it's unhealthy not to have a small private psychological space in which you continue to explore aspects of your emotions, sexuality, personality or whatever, alone and without sharing your discoveries with anyone else. I mean it's not like I am doing the Tiger Woods and bangin 18 girls behind my GF's back. I showed some people on the internet my dick because Im intrigued by people's reactions to it, potentially I could always do much worse than that. Also, maybe it is a good thing that I have showed girl's my dick because when they are interested in me, I have no interest in them. I often feel like they don't compare to my GF which has shown me my true thoughts of her how much l truly care about her.