I get angry at my dad. He made me feel safe all the time. It was my dad and my two older brothers on our own. Nudity was commonplace. Underwear was shared among all of us. Dad was an exboxer who owned a bar. My brothers and I were wrestlers. Our bathroom had a huge communal shower area where the four of us could shower at the same time if needed. We would laugh and smack each other. We would do the "snap of the wet towel" stuff and tell dirty jokes. Some of our greatest talks were completely naked together in that shower. It was when my dad stopped being a tough guy and allowed us to see his heart. He told me it is ok to pop a boner. He said it is normal when the water hits you after lifting weights. I was never embarrassed of course my dad was not either. It is just how we grew up. I guess that is why I have zero shyness about being naked. I laugh to myself when guys shower in the gym wearing underwear. My dad would have said "Be a man" and pulled them off a guy.
In high school I was the Joc and felt safe in the lockerrooms there. The sophomores held us naked in the showers under the cold water. We in turn did that to the new freshman when we were older. It was all in good fun. It was safe with only mild flirting and comparing going one. I thought all high school locker rooms were so great. I was wrong.
My dad put me in bodybuilding contests in NY and Jersey. I won quite a few. I just didn't know that men with wedding bands would want to touch my ass or package. I didn't know people wanted to use me. I didn't know so many men would be angry or jealous of me when they saw me naked. I figured my brothers and I were just normal. I didn't know we were all above average in size. Dad explained sex like a sport to me and showed me porn when explaining all you could do to a girl or guy if preferred. Sex has particular goals you have meet. Dad put in my head Threesomes are the best.
I didn't know there were so many gay men in the world. Dad said only 3% of the U.S. population is gay or bi. I think that number is too low. He said if you are "a gay" I will always love you but don't ever allow any man to fuck your muscle ass. In our family the men do all the fucking". Dad thought it was great that I worked as a stripper. I wish he didn't approve. I was still a teen but I needed the cash. He always said to us "God blessed your with that great body. You must accept you IQ limitations because no one gets everything. You either get a big dick or a big brain". That stuck with me and my brothers all our lives. Dad would put me in a head lock as I was getting our of our showers. He would say kind things but was rough andI believe his head lock was his way of hugging me.
Dad didn't warn me to watch who was oiling me up before a bodybuilding competition. Dad didn't warn me that some other wrestlers could grab me where it hurts and twist their hand hoping I will lose my grip. Dad didn't warn me that some of the wrestlers there were into body contact only and use wrestling as an excuse to getting their jollies. Dad brought home women often. He didn't allow me to hear the noises of two people who loved each other in the next room. He allowed me to hear the voices of two people getting off, sometimes it was a 3some or foursome with his best friend. My dad didn't warn me that if he passed out from drinking, his drunk/high lady friends would seek sex from his boys who were in their teens.
My dad loves me. But sometimes I am so angry because I had no idea that men would want to touch or penetrate my ass because I was athletic and cut with hardly any body fat and no body hair. I just didn't know that most men would react to seeing me nude or barely clothed. He did not warn me. I guess I am dumb. I thought all guys were like my brothers. I guess that is stupid.
Jake
In high school I was the Joc and felt safe in the lockerrooms there. The sophomores held us naked in the showers under the cold water. We in turn did that to the new freshman when we were older. It was all in good fun. It was safe with only mild flirting and comparing going one. I thought all high school locker rooms were so great. I was wrong.
My dad put me in bodybuilding contests in NY and Jersey. I won quite a few. I just didn't know that men with wedding bands would want to touch my ass or package. I didn't know people wanted to use me. I didn't know so many men would be angry or jealous of me when they saw me naked. I figured my brothers and I were just normal. I didn't know we were all above average in size. Dad explained sex like a sport to me and showed me porn when explaining all you could do to a girl or guy if preferred. Sex has particular goals you have meet. Dad put in my head Threesomes are the best.
I didn't know there were so many gay men in the world. Dad said only 3% of the U.S. population is gay or bi. I think that number is too low. He said if you are "a gay" I will always love you but don't ever allow any man to fuck your muscle ass. In our family the men do all the fucking". Dad thought it was great that I worked as a stripper. I wish he didn't approve. I was still a teen but I needed the cash. He always said to us "God blessed your with that great body. You must accept you IQ limitations because no one gets everything. You either get a big dick or a big brain". That stuck with me and my brothers all our lives. Dad would put me in a head lock as I was getting our of our showers. He would say kind things but was rough andI believe his head lock was his way of hugging me.
Dad didn't warn me to watch who was oiling me up before a bodybuilding competition. Dad didn't warn me that some other wrestlers could grab me where it hurts and twist their hand hoping I will lose my grip. Dad didn't warn me that some of the wrestlers there were into body contact only and use wrestling as an excuse to getting their jollies. Dad brought home women often. He didn't allow me to hear the noises of two people who loved each other in the next room. He allowed me to hear the voices of two people getting off, sometimes it was a 3some or foursome with his best friend. My dad didn't warn me that if he passed out from drinking, his drunk/high lady friends would seek sex from his boys who were in their teens.
My dad loves me. But sometimes I am so angry because I had no idea that men would want to touch or penetrate my ass because I was athletic and cut with hardly any body fat and no body hair. I just didn't know that most men would react to seeing me nude or barely clothed. He did not warn me. I guess I am dumb. I thought all guys were like my brothers. I guess that is stupid.
Jake