Today's work was quite interesting. In a very good way. E was constantly talking with me, smiling at me, making jokes, and joining me in work errands, not to mention adding another task on the list of things I do at work (changing out the drinks in the store brand coke machine in the lobby). Throughout the day we'd still do our silent communication with our eyes, but he gave me smiles like he used to back when I first started working there: those super huge giant smiles that instantly put me in a good mood.
Starting the late afternoon, I suppose due to the cold weather, rain we've had since morning, and winds that were picking up, it got MEGA busy at work. Here in DFW if the weather gets bad, they freak out and stock up for 2-3 weeks worth of groceries for no reason at all. Anyhow, today is the only week I wasn't cashiering, so I was bagging groceries and bringing in carts from outside as usual; except we were so clusterfucked at the front end of the store, I was the only one getting carts outside. E kept checking on the condition of the parking lot and coordinating with me, and twice today he offered to let me use his (really nice) leather jacket; I rejected because I wear a green hoody, particularly for the reason of having breathable material to cover me. If I wear something like a leather or polyester jacket, the heat that accumulates as I work outside gets to me, and when I go inside where it's 80F I start sweating like crazy, so I wear something a little more airy. I'm also mostly immune to cold weather, but coworkers keep showing concern for me. Just weird that E would offer to let me use his jacket, but he's also been calling me 'buddy' more often now. He called me that several times today.
Now, remember how I said I sent him an email saying I was attracted to him? After what he told me after I clocked out for the day, I'm still not sure he's even read it. Why is that? Because he has neither TV nor internet at home - he says he can't afford either because of his bills, and here's how it came up:
I was walking toward the bathrooms where the timeclock was, and E was stocking some things in a locked case next to customer service. He initiated a conversation about how stupid busy it got today, and said it must be because they think it's going to snow or something, then he said he wouldn't really know because he has 'no communication with the outside world - no internet or TV at home.' I asked why, and he said ".. bills, can't afford either. Only have access when I'm at a friend's house or with family." I gave a few concerned comments, and he said "You get used to not having it eventually. I don't really know what goes on unless someone tells me or I read it in the newspaper, so something like the weather is unknown to me until it happens" and then he shrugged. Not sure what I said after that, but somehow I found a reason to ask him about his health concern that he talked about the other day at work, and he said he had a doctor's appointment on Friday. Then he told me "I'll see you later buddy" and I left my parting comment, then went home.
So.. he's being friendlier with me, even offered his jacket, and it's very unlikely that he's read my email because he almost never even uses the internet. Intriguing.
