If she appreciates you giving her oral but doesn't understand why you do it, and doesn't want to do something to you that she considers "icky", perhaps there's something fundamentally wrong with her understanding of a "relationship". The doing of something that is pleasurable to their partner for their enjoyment, and their's alone, is a sign of caring. When both express that sentiment together the sex can be incredibly hot.
I agree with others' recommendation for either therapy, or your own re-evaluation of the relationship. How about if you bring those options up with her? If she does love you, then trying to objectively deal with this shouldn't be something to fear. If, on the other hand, you question her feelings for you...
I agree with others' recommendation for either therapy, or your own re-evaluation of the relationship. How about if you bring those options up with her? If she does love you, then trying to objectively deal with this shouldn't be something to fear. If, on the other hand, you question her feelings for you...