This is one thing I have had problems with for a while and for some reason I always felt compelled not to ask bring this up: I 22 years old, so that's roughly what-- 20 years of memories I am supposed to have? I can only remember certain parts of my life. As far back as I can remember is when I was 16, but my memories between now and then are pretty sparse. I can't remember most things before 16, but maybe a handful of (partial) memories; though some of these memories don't seem right. I can remember a birthday party from when I was in the first grade, or second, I'm not sure; I can remember going to the public pool on two occasions, though I know I went more often than that; I remember going to church, two occasions that were'nt even pleasant ones; aside from that I have a few more memories, but obviously fewer than I think I should have. Like I am remembering something someone else thought of... Like remembering a dream I never had. Sometimes I have a hard time telling the dream-memories from the real ones. And a lot of the times when I remember (or think of) the dream-memories I feel like I am kind of beside myself, or looking at myself without seeing me inside of myself. One other thing that goes with these other things is my train of thought with my current memories... Sometimes I'll be doing something-- anything, and all of the sudden something like a smell or sound will send me into a type of auto-pilot. I do things without meaning or wanting to, it feels like all I can do is think about what I am doing... I can't stop it or keep it going, it just happens and stops when it wants. Usually when I go into this auto-pilot mode my thoughts are very limited too. I usually think "Why am I doing that?", or "I should stop." but do nothing to stop whatevr I am doing (I can't somehow) and the voice in my head (my brain-voice) feels sleepy or else sedated. It passes though and I get back to normal, albiet a little groggy. And when I am on "auto-pilot" I have a really hard time looking at myself in the mirror. I get this really unpleasant feeling that I can't explain, it's like I am being smashed to one side of my brain, but completely different... Like a weird sinus headache. And sometimes when I look in the mirror I cry, but I hardly ever feel sad when I do, I only look sad. And over the last few months I have been having really vivid dreams that seem too real and I always wake up tired. These dreams stick with me for a long time too; they dreams disturb me and sometimes the stuff that happens in my dreams coinsides with stuff that really happened to me days or even a week before the dream. (But it's not like a regular dream , it's like these dreams are filling in the holes of what I can't remember, and they aren't doing very well) And the people that I live always tell me that I had said things I don't remember, I just thought they were fucking with me. Anyway, does anyone think there's anything to this, or is this common? I am not asking for medical advise or anything, and I am currently on meds for Bipolar Disorder and Anxiety and this is not ANY SORT of side effect from any medications I have ever taken.