Hi guys.
I have gone by the usernames ArtAppreciation, JediMindChick, and Boston Mila on here.
I’m writing this because I acted badly in the past, and want to take ownership of my behavior. If anyone on here has been ghosted by me, and wants to know why, this message is for you.
I have been on LPSG for about 9 years or so. During that time, I friended, heavily flirted with, and then ghosted over a dozen guys. And I never told them why. Now I have that chance.
It was because I didn’t understand what genuine and authentic communication was, until about a year ago. I was too scared of getting close to people. I had a deep underlying belief that I wasn’t good enough for anything or anyone. So I would just stop talking to you whether things were going great during our chats or not. I believe it was a cowardly easy way to preserve my own ego and prevent you from ‘ghosting’ it to me first.
I am not trying to reconnect. I am working on connecting with who I am as a person right now.
I have no excuses and no justifications to offer. I just wanted to say that I’m really sorry to any guy who has been left upset and confused and possibly even hurt because of my past behavior.
I wish I could go and take it all back, but of course, life doesn’t work that way. I’m glad to be in a much more aware place now, and I think that’s how I was able to write this post. I don’t want any pats on the back or anything. That’s not why I wrote this.
I wrote it because what I did was fucked up and nobody deserved to have their feelings hurt by me. None of you did anything wrong. This was all me.
I‘m embarassed by way that I treated some of Lpsg’s loveliest gentlemen. I needed to express that for my own sake. Thank you for reading this.
Nothing but love for everyone here.
Respectfully,
Me
I have gone by the usernames ArtAppreciation, JediMindChick, and Boston Mila on here.
I’m writing this because I acted badly in the past, and want to take ownership of my behavior. If anyone on here has been ghosted by me, and wants to know why, this message is for you.
I have been on LPSG for about 9 years or so. During that time, I friended, heavily flirted with, and then ghosted over a dozen guys. And I never told them why. Now I have that chance.
It was because I didn’t understand what genuine and authentic communication was, until about a year ago. I was too scared of getting close to people. I had a deep underlying belief that I wasn’t good enough for anything or anyone. So I would just stop talking to you whether things were going great during our chats or not. I believe it was a cowardly easy way to preserve my own ego and prevent you from ‘ghosting’ it to me first.
I am not trying to reconnect. I am working on connecting with who I am as a person right now.
I have no excuses and no justifications to offer. I just wanted to say that I’m really sorry to any guy who has been left upset and confused and possibly even hurt because of my past behavior.
I wish I could go and take it all back, but of course, life doesn’t work that way. I’m glad to be in a much more aware place now, and I think that’s how I was able to write this post. I don’t want any pats on the back or anything. That’s not why I wrote this.
I wrote it because what I did was fucked up and nobody deserved to have their feelings hurt by me. None of you did anything wrong. This was all me.
I‘m embarassed by way that I treated some of Lpsg’s loveliest gentlemen. I needed to express that for my own sake. Thank you for reading this.
Nothing but love for everyone here.
Respectfully,
Me