As a longer term medium-severe sufferer it isn't amazing.
Before this I was having issues and let things slip a bit.
It was kind of in a process of getting through challenging avoidance. Sometimes we break to fix, but fixing gets interrupted.
Avoidance is now enforced, and coping mechanisms may be useful in some sense…which given effort to rectify them I do not see as positive. Its a depression.
The major source of anxiety follows an election in the UK I found to be rather worrying. Somehow, the country being in that kind of divided dishonest state, having to deal with this is problematic. Social anxiety is major, because as many know it feels like scrutiny by other members of public, and some perhaps arbitrary restrictions by those who voted in favour of a poor medical system.
The scrutiny, the doom, hysteria, a kind of socially enforced tribal justice, perhaps I am familiar in that I have shared at one short time delusions regarding nuclear war (full psychosis, sectioned) and thus am placed in an albeit less absurd, but seemingly comparably big shift that is not produced by my thoughts
with, is worrying me about returns of that illness. Occasionally leaving paranoia and mild peripheral visual disturbance/trick of mind (not exactly hallucination, but perhaps mistaking objects for people out the corner of eyes)
I am a musician too and venues do not cope. It has taken a while to be playing them after mental health issues.
*also turning on quora after four months or so… BiBig mistake. Forgot how shite minded people can be, and the confusing lack of true communication going on here.
Another note I obviously cannot go to therapy, and careworkers are way too overloaded, thankfully am no longer a severe case but they are truly worried a out psychotic, self harming, suicidal, drug addicted and perhaps abusing people.