Not trying to make more out of this than is rightfully there but am somewhat confused. A liitle history first... My best friend is 29 and 14 years younger than me. I'm 43 and although that's a fairly large age gap we just naturally connected from the very start. We've been friends for three years now. He is happily married, very masculine as I am, but very much connected to his heart. About two years ago we confessed to eachother that when younger we both had jacked off with a buddy. He views it as something wrong and I guess the older I get I just don't see it as that big a deal. Anyway we talked about it but disagree on the subject. Over the last year or so he has surprised me with comments he's made. All have been a "joke" but I'm not so sure. Things like "you would suck my dick if I asked you to!" of course I replied w "heck no - but a handjob isn't out of the question. Lol" he though I went to far w my comment. As if his wasn't! He has always given me compliments about my physique, appearance and style choices. All good stuff. Thing is he's gotten drunk twice and each time says things like "look at you bro - Damn!" and told our wives I was "sexy". While on our way home from a party he reached over and grabbed my face - held it as you would a child's. It was probably the most intimate thing he's ever done. All things that make me feel great but wonder if he'd want to get more close physically. Im not talking sex but possibly jacking off. Once while we were swimming I took off my trunks and skinny dipped in his pool but he refused to join me on it. I just laughed it off. Are these mixed signals? Or am I seeing what I want to see?