I posted a long entry somewhere on the changes this site has gone through in the past 6 months, although I don't think anyone read it. At lot of the newer members haven't seen the site at it's best and really have no clue as to what any of us are about. I can see where people who just joined recently would think Lex is a tyrant or that I'm a self-centered bitch, I really can. Rather than doing ANYTHING of value, most of the older members have been struggling just to keep up with the bs on the site, and hold our community of friends together. It ain't been easy.
We've never had such a HUGE influx of new members than we have since November. Usually, we'd just have a few at a time and we'd take them under our wings and show them around. That's how it was for me when I joined. This time, there was a huge number, the members were scattered, you were never properly introduced around the site and we all just got off to a bad start. Before you even had a chance to get acquainted to us, the thing happend with Danny (Jacinto), so we're all still trying to figure out what happened and where we're going.
I got very offended that people who I didn't even know their name were getting right up in my personal business when they didn't know either myself or Jacinto. Yes, it made me resentful of the n00bs. I didn't act like that when I was new, so I expected better. A couple times, I've tried to gently guide someone from making a forum faux paux and I've been given a snide response like "I'll do whatever the fuck I want". Well, you just don't come into a place where there is an agenda in progress and "inform" the people there that you'll do whatever you want, especially when it's a private owned business, like this is.
Nobody likes the amount of time we're spending on arguments and misunderstandings, and I certainly hope we can get past it soon, so I'm reaching out- to you and all the newer people. No one here is out to get you, we just don't want our site completely turned into something else. We like what it is, we're glad you're here too.
I haven't talked about myself or my own life much in a long time because I did that so very much when I first joined, and I figure anyone who's been around very long is sick to death of hearing from me. But I realise that the newer people probably don't know me very well. I'll try to remember that when I post, and gradually you can let me get to know you too. I think we're all reasonable enough to grow together, right?