I was messaging someone, and thought maybe if I shared more about me that I wouldn't get so many 'faker' accusations. :tongue: My profile shows 80% gay and 20% straight. To explain: I have a hard time dating women, because I can't commit myself. I'm married to a man, but it is a very unusual relationship. We are open to hard swinging, I am 100% available to date girls, but the LP thing is iffy... I am experiencing a ton of guilt. He's gone with me before on a LP hookup and it was good, but I still feel guilty being here. I think it might hurt his feelings, but it is also a huge lust of mine. How to reconcile? I don't know. If I weren't married to him I would be 99% lesbian or maybe 100% but I can't make that leap. I just can't. Girls are just too hard on my heart in relationships. Does that make any sense at all? :frown1: I'm very unusual for a girl with an unusual viewpoint, so I expected to be rejected and accused of being a man by some members here, but it still hurts. Does that ever go away? What can I do to further prove myself?