[FONT="]The intensity of our sexual feelings grew, however and I encouraged her to fantasize about his cock in her during some of the most amazing hand jobs. One time, after getting each other off, we were lying naked on the bed and she turned to me with a lustful look in her eye. “Do you want to know what I was fantasizing about this time?” she asks me.[/FONT]
[FONT="]“Did you experience something new?”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“Yeah, I was fantasizing about the last time I had him in me. The act of letting go while he was all the way in me was indescribable. I suddenly found myself on a slippery slope, letting go of more than just my feeling of disappointment. And I realized that I didn’t want to stop.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“Then, the next time he’s inside you, don’t stop.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“I’m surprised that you are willing to give up intercourse.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“Believe me, I’m being a lot more selfish about this than you think; I would not give up something I treasure so willingly unless I found something I treasure even more. The intensity of my orgasms is much stronger when you do that, then when we have intercourse. And I want to explore this as far as we can. I know how much you love me and that our relationship is based on more than just simply intercourse. So as long as we always remember our commitment to loving each other, then I have no problem with you’re letting go. But I want to share this experienced with you every step of the way.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“Okay, I think I understand. And you know what? Even while I was letting go the first time, it was not as easy as I thought it would be and I still find that I am very attached to your cock. And yet, at the same time, every time I have him in me, the less I want yours in me. Already, yours doesn’t excite me like it used to. And I could barely feel you inside me after the last time.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“Tell me how you felt the first time you saw his cock.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]I could tell by the expression on her face that she was becoming aroused by the mere memory of her experience.[/FONT]
[FONT="]“Well, I felt a little guilty at how much more aroused I got from seeing how much bigger he was. Please don’t take this the wrong way, but I never felt quite that excited by the sight of your cock. I find that I also like the shape of his cock more than yours and especially his larger cock-head. I immediately thought about what that would feel like, because it always made me feel delirious when your cockhead expanded right before you came inside me.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“Tell me every point at which you felt intoxicated.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“Well, almost all the time! The truth is, before I had his cock in me, I had never thought of yours as small. Remember that you encouraged me to be shallow about it.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“Yes I did and I have not changed my mind about it.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“Okay then, the first time I watched him guide it between my legs I couldn’t believe it was happening. I felt extremely intoxicated and was very nervous when I felt his cock-head pressing into me. With your cock in me, we have to build towards an orgasm now. With his cock in me, I started having an orgasm from the first moment I felt his cock stretching me open. And honey, while I have definitely felt filled by your cock, his was expanding me to my fullest capacity and the thought of that happening, the full length of my vagina, sent waves of orgasm all through my body. This is something I’ve never felt on your cock. Another huge turn on was how much harder his cock felt, being so much thicker than yours. I still wasn’t even sure if he would be able to get it all the way in. And I had not given it a thought that his cock could open me up more deeply than yours. So I really didn’t know what to expect when he penetrated further than I was used to. I felt a kind of release, like something gave way at that moment. And when he pulled back to thrust in again, I was aware of the absence of his cock and craved in that moment to have that new space filled again. And when he came in me the intoxication became overwhelming, which was timed well because that’s when I felt his cock-head expand! But, the thought of being ruined for you made me sad. That’s when I realized just how attached to your cock I still was. It didn’t spoil my perpetual orgasm, though. And obviously, there is no way I could’ve experienced that sensation with your cock in me. Now that he has opened me up so deeply, I can still feel the lingering sensation of his cock being in me, even now, which is something I’ve never experienced with your cock. Right now, I can still feel a “pleasant ache”, which makes me want him in me all the time. I really hope you don’t mind my fantasizing about his cock when we make love. Being aware of that absent feeling, all I can think about is having that cock in me again.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“I really don’t mind.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“Paul, one of my concerns is that, even though you are really turned on by this now that later you might regret our decision to go through with this.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“I don’t regret it at all and, you may be surprised by this; the more you want it, the more it intoxicates me. In fact, I’m pretty certain that I want you to go all the way with this.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“You mean it, don’t you?” Tina said, “Then I have a small confession to make. When I told you after the first time that I resisted how it felt. The first time he was inside me, I remembered what Allyson said, but I didn’t understand what she was saying until that moment. What I was really resisting was a very strong urge to be ruined by his cock. It’s not just a physical thing either, because I know, given time, that your cock could be enough to satisfy me again. That’s why I keep suggesting that we could stop and go back to the way things were. I will only continue if you want me to.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“Not only do I want you to continue, but next time he is deep inside you, I want you to give yourself permission to be ruined by his larger cock.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]She turned to me startled, her face turning red. Her blush said it all; she had already given it some thought.[/FONT]
[FONT="]“Honey, I already miss the way you felt inside me. And every time I have sex with him, I miss it even less. “[/FONT]
[FONT="]“Would you like to know something else that turns me on?”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“Sure.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“Well, just after he had finished pulling out of you the last time, I was surprised by how turned on I was seeing how much he had stretched open your vagina.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“That turns me on too, for some reason. That’s why I wanted to feel you inside me after he was done. Look, if you ever feel that you miss the physical intimacy, just give me the word and we could stop and go back to the way things were and I’ll start doing Kegel exercises.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“I suppose that option will always be open to us. But right now, being honest with yourself, what do you want to do about your attachment to my cock?”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“I never thought I would ever feel this way,” she said, “but the thought of letting go completely is intensely intoxicating.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“Okay,” I said, “then when you let go, also let go of the sadness you feel about losing your attachment to my cock the next time he’s inside you.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“You understand that once I start letting go, that I won’t want to stop.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“I want you to completely embrace how you feel about it without any reservation. All I want is for you to share the moment with me by giving me a signal when you are ready to give yourself permission to be ruined by his cock. Just make eye contact with me and give me a nod.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]“I’ll go one better; it would be an enormous turn on for me if I were to make eye contact with you and you give me a nod to give your consent. And that’s when I’ll let go completely.”[/FONT]
[FONT="]At that point, after talking about it, we were both so horny that we actually had intercourse that night and probably for the last time.[/FONT]