So if you like, i would go into details..
On his birthday he called me, around 9pm and told me to get ready fast cus we are going out and he didn’t told me where, he only said that the place that we are going to visit is very interesting . I was little shooked and cus I didn’t expected that...from him... so i got dressed and after 10 minutes i left my home.
When we met, he wore a hoodie and i knew it that we are going to be under black sky. he had already bought two botles of wines and some snacks. And he told me that he is taking me somewhere intersting so I trusted him. We were walking for almost 1 hour and all we did is talked the whole time.. and when we got to our final destination i stoped breathing cus the place was.. it was the place i begged him to come with me.. you could see the town and the skyscrapers , the stars, and the mountains.. it was kinda romantic i guess..
So we sit down on the grass, we opened the bottles, and then we started drinking. We looked the stars for a half an our or maybe even more.. then We started of by talking about how we meet, about the first memory we had from each other, what we thought about each other and etc etc.. then we got even deeper, we talked about our families, how we lost our loved ones. We were so open to each other. Then we started talking about our friends..
Aaand thats when we started talking about us.. it started with our confession about how much we appreciate each other. He said that he never had a friend like me, and that he never wants to lose me. He talked about how lonely was he before he met me. I filled him. Thats what he told. He told me also that he cares a lot for me.. like a lot. Remember the bracelet I bought him. It was diy braclet. On a silver braclet i put a small “coin”...few days later (after i give him the braclet) he looked everywhere to buy a same bracelet for me, so we would have the same one.. when he was talking about this, i saw sparkles in his eyes.. And he told me that, while he was looking for the bracelet, someone told him that the coin was so rare to find. Anddd thats the moment when i kock by saying that, he is also rare to find.
))) he smiled sweetly.. when the wine kicked even more, we started to talk even more about us... we opened even more about our feelings. He told me that i love is not an easy sentence to say. And then he said that: if someone tells you that they love, it can confusion ... i think i know what he mesnt by that. I didn’t say directly that i love him, but i did by telling like: i love you bro... I didn’t confess about my deep feelings i had for him. We talked for hours I don’t even remember what I’ve said nor I remember what he said anymore... but in conclusion he said a lot of stuffs and they were “i love you ( but i cant )”...
At the end when we finished, we packed the bottles and then we started walking home. While walking I hugged him. I said: stop dude, and hugged him with all my feelings i have for him.. he did also. It was the most beautiful five minutes of my life.. I’ve never felt more secured in a hug..
Now im so confused.. like tell me which straight friend would do something like this.. i only ask myself, what now?????????