My Final Words

Discussion in 'Et Cetera, Et Cetera' started by D_Burfield_Bumcleaver, Oct 24, 2007.

  1. D_Burfield_Bumcleaver

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    Hey guys (and gals). It's Bobbie. No...I'm not going to kill myself or something. This may be a shock to some of you, but I (like I'm sure many here) have been living a double life. In my normal life, I am a christian guy who goes to church. In my second life, I am a lusting, porn-addicted, envious and empty guy. You must be thinking I'm gonna blast homosexuality or porn or something, but I won't.

    I just realized today that porn doesn't really satisfy me anymore. They always said it wouldn't in church and in youth group. I have much deeper issues that cause me to feel the things I do. But anyway, I realized that I want something real. And not sex. A real relationship with someone that I can appreciate for all they are, and in which I can be uplifted and strengthened. Of course, this eventually involves sex, but not as the center.

    I've decided to end my LPSG, Xtube, hotmail accounts for good. I don't really want these things to define my life. I realize LPSG, at its very essence, is just a support forum for guys with big penises. lol. And that's totally fine. But I don't want to hang around anymore because it pulls me into things that aren't doing me any good.

    And I certainly don't want to have this inner struggle between wanting to be uplifted and respected as a man, and giving in to my lust anymore. This may sound really churchy to some of you, but I don't think it is. I'm definitely not doing it with a hot head or with pride. I just want to move on.

    My purpose in writing this is to give anybody else who might be in the same situation I am in some food for thought. Remember my favorite quote from V for Vendetta: "Our integrity sells for so little, but it is all we really have. It is the very last inch of us. But within that inch, we are free." - Valarie Never lose your integrity.

    So thanks for all the good chats, discussion, and fun. Hope you guyses lives are awesome, and maybe we'll meet again one day.
     
  2. joyboytoy79

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    Swans are so pretty when they dive. I hope you find happiness Bobbie.
     
  3. Principessa

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    Farewell and may you find peace in your quest.
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  4. Mr. Snakey

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    Good luck to you and be well
     
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    Good luck in your endeavors. :)
     
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    I wish you well...
     
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    best of luck bobbie. I hope you find another outlet in life that makes you happy and to fill that void.
     
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    The key is a healthy balance. One can go from one extreme to the other very easily, believing that the solution to finding a satisfying life is always within some other box.

    I hope you find what you are looking for while remaining true to all facets that make up the person that you are! :smile:
     
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    Live long and prosper. :smile:

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    May you find balance, peace, happiness, and yourself! Be well!
     
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    I didn't know you but I wish you well. You sound balanced and healthy and whole and I hope you are all those those things, I truly do. If there are any issues you need to work out here, you can always come back and if not, god speed.
     
  12. D_Burfield_Bumcleaver

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    I guess I'm back guys. I found that I missed you guys a lot. Don't mean to sound like a hypocrit but I think LPSG can be a part of my balanced life after all.
     
  13. SpoiledPrincess

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    Goodbyes are always a mistake on sites like these, 95% of the time the person always comes back.

    A balanced life doesn't mean ignoring your sexual side and trying to subjugate a love of porn, when porn is all you have in your life it can feel empty, but married guys with families still look at their fair share of porn. Don't beat yourself up over feeling you're a little addicted to it, but do try to make sure it's only a very minor part of your life.
     
  14. agnslz

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    Well, it's a week later and Bobbie is still here. Right now, as a matter of fact. Surprise, surprise.:rolleyes:
     
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    Everything should be in a balance. I just don't agree with a religion that rejects sexuality. I hope it works out for you. Your far from my thinking so I can't relate. Cheers
     
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