Hey guys (and gals). It's Bobbie. No...I'm not going to kill myself or something. This may be a shock to some of you, but I (like I'm sure many here) have been living a double life. In my normal life, I am a christian guy who goes to church. In my second life, I am a lusting, porn-addicted, envious and empty guy. You must be thinking I'm gonna blast homosexuality or porn or something, but I won't.
I just realized today that porn doesn't really satisfy me anymore. They always said it wouldn't in church and in youth group. I have much deeper issues that cause me to feel the things I do. But anyway, I realized that I want something real. And not sex. A real relationship with someone that I can appreciate for all they are, and in which I can be uplifted and strengthened. Of course, this eventually involves sex, but not as the center.
I've decided to end my LPSG, Xtube, hotmail accounts for good. I don't really want these things to define my life. I realize LPSG, at its very essence, is just a support forum for guys with big penises. lol. And that's totally fine. But I don't want to hang around anymore because it pulls me into things that aren't doing me any good.
And I certainly don't want to have this inner struggle between wanting to be uplifted and respected as a man, and giving in to my lust anymore. This may sound really churchy to some of you, but I don't think it is. I'm definitely not doing it with a hot head or with pride. I just want to move on.
My purpose in writing this is to give anybody else who might be in the same situation I am in some food for thought. Remember my favorite quote from V for Vendetta: "Our integrity sells for so little, but it is all we really have. It is the very last inch of us. But within that inch, we are free." - Valarie Never lose your integrity.
So thanks for all the good chats, discussion, and fun. Hope you guyses lives are awesome, and maybe we'll meet again one day.
I just realized today that porn doesn't really satisfy me anymore. They always said it wouldn't in church and in youth group. I have much deeper issues that cause me to feel the things I do. But anyway, I realized that I want something real. And not sex. A real relationship with someone that I can appreciate for all they are, and in which I can be uplifted and strengthened. Of course, this eventually involves sex, but not as the center.
I've decided to end my LPSG, Xtube, hotmail accounts for good. I don't really want these things to define my life. I realize LPSG, at its very essence, is just a support forum for guys with big penises. lol. And that's totally fine. But I don't want to hang around anymore because it pulls me into things that aren't doing me any good.
And I certainly don't want to have this inner struggle between wanting to be uplifted and respected as a man, and giving in to my lust anymore. This may sound really churchy to some of you, but I don't think it is. I'm definitely not doing it with a hot head or with pride. I just want to move on.
My purpose in writing this is to give anybody else who might be in the same situation I am in some food for thought. Remember my favorite quote from V for Vendetta: "Our integrity sells for so little, but it is all we really have. It is the very last inch of us. But within that inch, we are free." - Valarie Never lose your integrity.
So thanks for all the good chats, discussion, and fun. Hope you guyses lives are awesome, and maybe we'll meet again one day.
