[I'm thinking out loud with this post]: So I met this guy at a conference in NYC (I'm 22 he's 19). When the conference was over he asked me to come with him the next day to see sale preview of Hermes in Chelsea, then we did some shopping and I invited him over to catch a Broadway show with my boss and my good friend. So, I'm not out, and this guy is totally out. He kept holding my hand all through the show and rubbing my back whenever I stand next to him, and ended up leaving my boss and friend after the show. (I think my boss and friend know that something happened - which kind of makes me nervous). I ended up in some random frat party with him, made out a little bit and decided to go to his place. I hooked up with him and flew the next morning out of NY. So, I feel kind of like shit. I really liked the guy, because he's just super smart (and really cute!). He wrote me a text saying he had good times this weekend, and asked me to give him a ring when I'm back in town. So that means it's all cool, right? I mean, it's not like I was like a douchebag, right? I kind of feel weird because it was my very first one night stand, I've only slept with people I was dating/quasi dating. I also felt like shit when I just came all over him and I was like: "Oh, let me clean that up for you" and I grabbed some napkins, and he was like: "Don't worry about it, just throw them at the corner, I'll clean stuff up tomorrow morning". And I kind of felt like a tool.