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:hi: Hey guys, I'm new, long time lurker(well i haven't been here for awhile) first time poster. I currently live in Canada, going to a university.
Since this is a forum with such caring and articulate people, I feel like I had to become a member and get involved eventually, and this time, with my first post, I really want to get something off my chest, even though it just happened last night. I actually posted the story on a couple boards i'm a member of, but haven't got any rational comments.
So here I go:
It's this club gathering organized by my university's gay pride club. I got REALLY nervous before i made the decision to go in, i was like wandering on the streets for 15 minutes. Notice I had no gay friends around me ever, and no one i know has any suspicions about my sexuality. Anyways, i got in, it was pretty early, only the staff and some club members were there. A couple staff introduced me to a group of people (not to sound shallow, but they are pretty disfigured and unattractive). So after a while of doing nothing but standing like an idiot, I went over to the other group of people and introduced myself, there were 2 kinda hot guys that are a couple, they just continued kissing after shaking hands with me, and it was awkward... one staff member (the social guy) came in, and went straight to the bar and started talking to fellow staff, I remember talking to him on msn these couple days, I thought he was gonna be like all welcoming and nice when i introduced myself, but he was just like "oh i talked to you on msn" and went back to his conversation with a girl exec... As the night went on, people started coming in, and I struck up a conversation with whoever i can and feel comfortable with. Some are nice, some are blah. What I'm trying to say is that I kinda had a higher expectation before going into this thing, like people will come over and be relaxed, but it seemed like they only stick with people they already know, and a couple times when a couple guys i talked to left, they didnt even have the courtesy to say bye, i was sitting right there next to them!... I'm starting to think that straight people are nicer than gay, at least they have some courtesy.
But, I had fun talking to the finance guy of that club, he is sooo much hotter in person than on picture, and he's really nice too. Hes kinda like my type of guy, not gay-acting and down to earth.
Anyways, this first-time-ever coming out event is pretty much a failure, the whole time I was thinking, "you're playing with fire, outing yourself to a bunch of ignorant strangers?" but i'm not saying i'll give up. But I should seriously reconsider this coming out thing, if I have to get stuck with a bunch of self-absorbed queens, I'd better stick with some cool heterosexuals for a while...Got sooo much going on in my mind...
Please feel free to say anything. Oh sorry for posting nothing about penis in this first post, I will later...
Since this is a forum with such caring and articulate people, I feel like I had to become a member and get involved eventually, and this time, with my first post, I really want to get something off my chest, even though it just happened last night. I actually posted the story on a couple boards i'm a member of, but haven't got any rational comments.
So here I go:
It's this club gathering organized by my university's gay pride club. I got REALLY nervous before i made the decision to go in, i was like wandering on the streets for 15 minutes. Notice I had no gay friends around me ever, and no one i know has any suspicions about my sexuality. Anyways, i got in, it was pretty early, only the staff and some club members were there. A couple staff introduced me to a group of people (not to sound shallow, but they are pretty disfigured and unattractive). So after a while of doing nothing but standing like an idiot, I went over to the other group of people and introduced myself, there were 2 kinda hot guys that are a couple, they just continued kissing after shaking hands with me, and it was awkward... one staff member (the social guy) came in, and went straight to the bar and started talking to fellow staff, I remember talking to him on msn these couple days, I thought he was gonna be like all welcoming and nice when i introduced myself, but he was just like "oh i talked to you on msn" and went back to his conversation with a girl exec... As the night went on, people started coming in, and I struck up a conversation with whoever i can and feel comfortable with. Some are nice, some are blah. What I'm trying to say is that I kinda had a higher expectation before going into this thing, like people will come over and be relaxed, but it seemed like they only stick with people they already know, and a couple times when a couple guys i talked to left, they didnt even have the courtesy to say bye, i was sitting right there next to them!... I'm starting to think that straight people are nicer than gay, at least they have some courtesy.
But, I had fun talking to the finance guy of that club, he is sooo much hotter in person than on picture, and he's really nice too. Hes kinda like my type of guy, not gay-acting and down to earth.
Anyways, this first-time-ever coming out event is pretty much a failure, the whole time I was thinking, "you're playing with fire, outing yourself to a bunch of ignorant strangers?" but i'm not saying i'll give up. But I should seriously reconsider this coming out thing, if I have to get stuck with a bunch of self-absorbed queens, I'd better stick with some cool heterosexuals for a while...Got sooo much going on in my mind...
Please feel free to say anything. Oh sorry for posting nothing about penis in this first post, I will later...