Hey All, I'm sure you have all read a post like this before, but please bear with me.. I'm 20 and in college and I have this gay friend.. We met earlier in the Spring semester and hit it off as friends. Becoming better and better friends, we started talking more and more and hanging out. A few months into our new friendship, he would start making remarks like, "I want to come over and cuddle with you" and "I think it would be hot if we screwed around" and things of that nature; I figured he was kidding and just played it off. The thing is, is even though I knew he was half-kidding, I was getting kinda hard thinking of it. I told him, however, that if he did ever come over, that he would promise to not do anything or try to make a move.. he accepted. So one night he had to get a project done and he came over pretty late and we worked on it together.. he started asking me why and how I was so sure that I was straight and all this stuff. I stood strong and nothing happened that night. The next time he came over, we browsed this site together and were just laughing about all the dumb posts, watched some cams and just messed around on the computer.. nothing crazy. So bed time comes and he asks if he could share my bed because the floor was pretty uncomfortable.. I say "sure" and we hop in bed. Now, just a little back ground on myself, I get HARD over nothing. I'll be walking around at work and randomly get a hard on that refuses to go away.. So, naturally, I was rock hard in bed for both that reason and because I had never really shared the bed with someone I knew wanted to mess around with me. So with neither of us being able to sleep, we just talked and what not. I started teasing him by randomly poking him (hoping to make him uncomfortable), and I went too far and totally accidentally brushed up against his dick. I immediately stopped and he was like, "oh shit, I'm sorry man, but I told you to stop poking me!" It was awkward for quite a while and knowing we were both hard, I finally asked if he wanted to jack off. So, long story short, we ended up giving each other hand jobs and fell asleep. He came over a few days later and the same thing happened.. shared the bed, started with handjobs and it eventually moved to blowjobs and cuddling and I think he started kissing me a little bit.. This happened another time or two and I enjoyed it each time. I was confused during it cause I'm straight, but after the encounters I actually felt more straight than before I started. I know you all hate labels and what not, but I am just kind of confused... I'm totally attracted to women emotionally and physically and plan on getting married, but I also enjoy these random sexual encounters with my best friend. He says it's no big deal and that everyone does it, but I don't know about that. We haven't really hung out in a month or two because of our schedules, but every time I talk to him, I always end up trying to get him to come over so we can catch up and jack off. Any thoughts, comments or ideas? Thanks!