My Journey To Becoming A Closeted Cocksucker

[Scottmj2]

I’ve always been fascinated with blowjob porn more than other genres. Somewhere along the way, my wife lost interest in sexual activity. Her pussy stopped getting wet and she let herself gain about 80 extra pounds over the years. As it was happening, I found myself becoming more and more fascinated with the idea of experiencing what it’s like to feel the throb of a big cock pulsing with sexual pleasure. After years of jerking off imaging it, I decided to go through with it. I met a guy through a craigslist add who was searching for a one way cocksucker/ feeder blowbud friendship. His cock is about twice the size of mine and he absolutely loves having his dick sucked. He prefers is to any sexual activity which is perfect for me. We chatted for a long time before we finally decided to meet.
I’ve sucked his cock three times, and become more comfortable each time. What I wasn’t expecting was the thrill I get from feeling his cock throb with pleasure in my mouth. His sighs and grunts of pleasure give me more sexual satisfaction than I’ve ever felt from touching my own cock.
He puts a cocksucker mask on me, hiding everything but my mouth, and records it sometimes. Since my face is hidden, I’ve said yes to him wanting to record more. He would like to post vids to xtube, if anyone is interested to watch a horny, hung blowjob obsessed guy get his cock sucked.

 

[Scottmj2]

So, my feeder has a kinky obsession with feeding his cum. I’m happy to swallow his loads and am looking for new, hot ideal for ways for him to feed me. Suggestions?

 

[Scottmj2]

I’ve been posting more about this in a different feed.

 

[erpap]

So, my feeder has a kinky obsession with feeding his cum. I’m happy to swallow his loads and am looking for new, hot ideal for ways for him to feed me. Suggestions?

Do your usual cock sucking but when he is close to cumming just use your lips over his head until he cums!

 

[erpap]

I’ve always been fascinated with blowjob porn more than other genres. Somewhere along the way, my wife lost interest in sexual activity. Her pussy stopped getting wet and she let herself gain about 80 extra pounds over the years. As it was happening, I found myself becoming more and more fascinated with the idea of experiencing what it’s like to feel the throb of a big cock pulsing with sexual pleasure. After years of jerking off imaging it, I decided to go through with it. I met a guy through a craigslist add who was searching for a one way cocksucker/ feeder blowbud friendship. His cock is about twice the size of mine and he absolutely loves having his dick sucked. He prefers is to any sexual activity which is perfect for me. We chatted for a long time before we finally decided to meet.
I’ve sucked his cock three times, and become more comfortable each time. What I wasn’t expecting was the thrill I get from feeling his cock throb with pleasure in my mouth. His sighs and grunts of pleasure give me more sexual satisfaction than I’ve ever felt from touching my own cock.
He puts a cocksucker mask on me, hiding everything but my mouth, and records it sometimes. Since my face is hidden, I’ve said yes to him wanting to record more. He would like to post vids to xtube, if anyone is interested to watch a horny, hung blowjob obsessed guy get his cock sucked.

I’d love to see this video

 

[pp_ryder]

I’d love to see this video

Me too!

 

[pp_ryder]

I’ve been posting more about this in a different feed.

Where is the feed, please? Do you have a link?

 

[Scottmj2]

So, it’s kinda pathetic when I analyze why I have such a strong lust for sucking a man’s cock. My wife is frigid, has been for years. The thing that gives me sexual satisfaction is feeling a human body physically react with pleasure from my movement. Once I experienced the throb of a stiff cock reacting to the feel of my mouth, I was hooked.

 

[4202HHN]

Have you thought about creating a stable of guys with big dicks to suck off? They might benefit from your experience and so would you.

 

[Scottmj2]

I haven’t. What I like is having one secret guy who is absolutely addicted to feeling my mouth wrapped around his cock, constantly wanting me to suck him. Being wanted for my suck is way hot to me.

 

[Scottmj2]

I suppose it’s reasonable to expect, but I’m so often conflicted and torn between two worlds. Because of my situation being married and closeted bi, I sometimes realize that I’ve got too much to lose and back out of meeting my feeder half of the time. I get a sick feeling inside from letting my mind wander. Other times, I just give in to my deep inner lust and longing to smell. Taste, and feel his stiff thick warm fleshy cock throb and pulse as he sits and enjoys feeling my mouth wrapped around his huge dick.
I stood him up last time out of nerves. He’s pretty perfect, as far as the type of guy I’d want to suck. I’m not attracted to men, physically aside from their cocks. But this guy has a completely perverted obsession with having his cock sucked where it’s literally his only sexual desire which is ideal! He is kinky sometimes, as he’s very visual, so he loves watching me mouth suck him. He gets into that blowjob zone and his voice becomes monotone, often softly grunting encouragement in the most masculine way. It seems though that the physical feeling of having his dick sucked is only 25% of his enjoyment from our encounters so far. I mentioned that he’s visual, well...

We met through craigslist. He had posted an add looking for a one way, no recip regular cocksucker. Naturally, once we started talking I realized that mentality and sexually he’s my ideal match. During our chatting he mentioned wanting to record me sucking him. The idea was and is hot, but being in my situation, I’m hesitant. As we began getting together for blowjobs, we both love it with me wearing a black stretchy cocksucker mask that covers everything except my mouth. When I first put it on, I’m completely blind inside for the first few minutes. After that, my eyes adjust so I can make out shapes and movement through the black fabric, but I’m not quite able to see. For a visual, I can see when his head rolls back if I look up while I suck him from the movement, but I’ll up and he’s somewhat still, I can’t tell where he’s looking or what position he’s in. Anyway, the second or third time I went to blow him, I looked up through my mask and noticed his arm move from the table and just hover between the table and his body. I realized that he had probably grabbed his phone and started recording me. At that moment, I wanted to ask him to stop, but I also thought the idea of watching a video of myself, masked and unidentifiable, was extremely hot so I kept sucking, slowly as I wondered what it will be like to watch my own lips embrace this guy’s big cock.

After about 30 seconds (which felt like forever knowing that this guy who I only know through a blowjob add has me on video sucking his cock) I moved my hand asking him to stop the recording. He did, I took off my mask, and asked him if I could watch it as I took his cock back into my mouth. (His cock is beyond amazing to suck, but that’s a whole different story) after that, I put my mask on and continued sucking him.
We chatted often and both think it’s hot making vids, but he’s not really that into sharing them with me. Yet something inside me wants to continue just sucking this cocky perverted big dicked blowjob obsessed guy and let him record himself being serviced for his enjoyment.

But while the camera adds a certain sexual thrill to the blowjob, it also adds to my fear and anxiety. So I’m often torn. And my backing out is extremely frustrating and upsetting to him, which I completely understand.

 

[4202HHN]

I suppose it’s reasonable to expect, but I’m so often conflicted and torn between two worlds. Because of my situation being married and closeted bi, I sometimes realize that I’ve got too much to lose and back out of meeting my feeder half of the time. I get a sick feeling inside from letting my mind wander. Other times, I just give in to my deep inner lust and longing to smell. Taste, and feel his stiff thick warm fleshy cock throb and pulse as he sits and enjoys feeling my mouth wrapped around his huge dick.
I stood him up last time out of nerves. He’s pretty perfect, as far as the type of guy I’d want to suck. I’m not attracted to men, physically aside from their cocks. But this guy has a completely perverted obsession with having his cock sucked where it’s literally his only sexual desire which is ideal! He is kinky sometimes, as he’s very visual, so he loves watching me mouth suck him. He gets into that blowjob zone and his voice becomes monotone, often softly grunting encouragement in the most masculine way. It seems though that the physical feeling of having his dick sucked is only 25% of his enjoyment from our encounters so far. I mentioned that he’s visual, well...

We met through craigslist. He had posted an add looking for a one way, no recip regular cocksucker. Naturally, once we started talking I realized that mentality and sexually he’s my ideal match. During our chatting he mentioned wanting to record me sucking him. The idea was and is hot, but being in my situation, I’m hesitant. As we began getting together for blowjobs, we both love it with me wearing a black stretchy cocksucker mask that covers everything except my mouth. When I first put it on, I’m completely blind inside for the first few minutes. After that, my eyes adjust so I can make out shapes and movement through the black fabric, but I’m not quite able to see. For a visual, I can see when his head rolls back if I look up while I suck him from the movement, but I’ll up and he’s somewhat still, I can’t tell where he’s looking or what position he’s in. Anyway, the second or third time I went to blow him, I looked up through my mask and noticed his arm move from the table and just hover between the table and his body. I realized that he had probably grabbed his phone and started recording me. At that moment, I wanted to ask him to stop, but I also thought the idea of watching a video of myself, masked and unidentifiable, was extremely hot so I kept sucking, slowly as I wondered what it will be like to watch my own lips embrace this guy’s big cock.

After about 30 seconds (which felt like forever knowing that this guy who I only know through a blowjob add has me on video sucking his cock) I moved my hand asking him to stop the recording. He did, I took off my mask, and asked him if I could watch it as I took his cock back into my mouth. (His cock is beyond amazing to suck, but that’s a whole different story) after that, I put my mask on and continued sucking him.
We chatted often and both think it’s hot making vids, but he’s not really that into sharing them with me. Yet something inside me wants to continue just sucking this cocky perverted big dicked blowjob obsessed guy and let him record himself being serviced for his enjoyment.

But while the camera adds a certain sexual thrill to the blowjob, it also adds to my fear and anxiety. So I’m often torn. And my backing out is extremely frustrating and upsetting to him, which I completely understand.

Bro, you need to stop standing him up. When he calls he obviously needs his dick sucked and a hot guy with a dick that size can get someone else. A flake won’t last long.

 

[Scottmj2]

He always talked about wanting to feed me his cum in different ways, but I really like feeling it gush right into my mouth. His cock pulses so stiff and thick, as he unloads warm waves of his seed. It fills my mouth like a warm flood of sticky ball-goo. The last time he unloaded, he kept it in my mouth and said “swallow it” firmly, almost a demanding tone. It’s humbling receiving his nut, and a little submissive to hear him tell me to swallow his cum, but it’s also such a huge thrill!

 

[4202HHN]

It fills my mouth like a warm flood of sticky ball-goo.

If it didn't that would be weird since it is a warm flood of sticky ball goo.

 

[Scottmj2]

I mentioned him recording vids of me sucking him wearing my cocksucker mask. He posted them to xtube privately for a few days for me to watch. But I never downloaded any of them before he removed them. All I have is a couple still shots he send me of his favorite moments where my masked lips are barely wrapped around the head of his cock. I look often remembering the feeling of his cock’s throb.

 

[Scottmj2]

I mentioned that I flaked on my feeder the last time we set up a meeting. I’ve decided that I can never do that again. I’m going to start hosting, exposing my home life to this guy. This guy, who loves I really know about him is his absolute and total love for having my mouth wrapped around his cock. I’m hoping it’s enough.

 

[Scottmj2]

I’m getting a hotel room tomorrow afternoon so I can spend a couple hours sucking my blowbud’s big dick. We haven’t talked much in detail, but I plan on giving him the slowest blowjob, doing everything I can to react to the throbs of his cock. The dude just really loves nothing better than a long slow blowjob, and it’s a perfect match for what I LOVE to do. He’s read this blog, which is a little exposing because he gets to read my true perverted feelings about how much I appreciate his dick. It’s just perfect! Extremely hard, pulsing hard the whole time, about 7”, THICK, his cockhead swells when it’s stimulated letting me know he’s dying to feel my lips slide down onto his shaft where I like to stay almost still, suckling on the mid portion for a bit, my tongue slowly sliding around underneath along his cum vein, my lips just barely sliding up and down SLOWLY, as he zoned out and throbs.
He mentioned possibly writing his own perspective of our “friendship” in a blog on here. Here’s to hoping!

 

[Scottmj2]

I got to the room early. He said that whenever I text him the room number, he’s be on his way. I responded immediately and he was quick to head over. I watched through the peephole waiting for my big dick blowbud to show up. He approached and knocked, and I opened the door without saying much. He walked in and there was a pause. I mentioned looking around the room to see where he’d like to start. Without hesitation, he said “sitting in a chair with you on the fooor between my legs slow sucking me”.
So, he sat and I began touching it gently with my fingers...nobody wants to hear the rest, right?

 

[pp_ryder]

I got to the room early. He said that whenever I text him the room number, he’s be on his way. I responded immediately and he was quick to head over. I watched through the peephole waiting for my big dick blowbud to show up. He approached and knocked, and I opened the door without saying much. He walked in and there was a pause. I mentioned looking around the room to see where he’d like to start. Without hesitation, he said “sitting in a chair with you on the fooor between my legs slow sucking me”.
So, he sat and I began touching it gently with my fingers...nobody wants to hear the rest, right?

No, not right. WRONG!

 

[aodaox1616]

I’ve always been fascinated with blowjob porn more than other genres. Somewhere along the way, my wife lost interest in sexual activity. Her pussy stopped getting wet and she let herself gain about 80 extra pounds over the years. As it was happening, I found myself becoming more and more fascinated with the idea of experiencing what it’s like to feel the throb of a big cock pulsing with sexual pleasure. After years of jerking off imaging it, I decided to go through with it. I met a guy through a craigslist add who was searching for a one way cocksucker/ feeder blowbud friendship. His cock is about twice the size of mine and he absolutely loves having his dick sucked. He prefers is to any sexual activity which is perfect for me. We chatted for a long time before we finally decided to meet.
I’ve sucked his cock three times, and become more comfortable each time. What I wasn’t expecting was the thrill I get from feeling his cock throb with pleasure in my mouth. His sighs and grunts of pleasure give me more sexual satisfaction than I’ve ever felt from touching my own cock.
He puts a cocksucker mask on me, hiding everything but my mouth, and records it sometimes. Since my face is hidden, I’ve said yes to him wanting to record more. He would like to post vids to xtube, if anyone is interested to watch a horny, hung blowjob obsessed guy get his cock sucked.

I’ve always been fascinated with blowjob porn more than other genres. Somewhere along the way, my wife lost interest in sexual activity. Her pussy stopped getting wet and she let herself gain about 80 extra pounds over the years. As it was happening, I found myself becoming more and more fascinated with the idea of experiencing what it’s like to feel the throb of a big cock pulsing with sexual pleasure. After years of jerking off imaging it, I decided to go through with it. I met a guy through a craigslist add who was searching for a one way cocksucker/ feeder blowbud friendship. His cock is about twice the size of mine and he absolutely loves having his dick sucked. He prefers is to any sexual activity which is perfect for me. We chatted for a long time before we finally decided to meet.
I’ve sucked his cock three times, and become more comfortable each time. What I wasn’t expecting was the thrill I get from feeling his cock throb with pleasure in my mouth. His sighs and grunts of pleasure give me more sexual satisfaction than I’ve ever felt from touching my own cock.
He puts a cocksucker mask on me, hiding everything but my mouth, and records it sometimes. Since my face is hidden, I’ve said yes to him wanting to record more. He would like to post vids to xtube, if anyone is interested to watch a horny, hung blowjob obsessed guy get his cock sucked.

Yes always interested in watching cock sucking videos really like home made like your syories