This is a difficult problem for me, perhaps the part of myself of which I am least proud. I would like to consider myself a supporter of equality, however there is a huge bias in my way. I have realized that I may actually have a problem in two respects. So here is how I came to this realization (although I think I knew long ago but didn't want to face it.) My wife and I have been talking about having kids lately. In fact, she miscarried late last year. So this has brought about the talk of adoption in the future, should we be unable to naturally carry a child to term. I actually quite like the idea of adoption, however I guess I had a picture in my head already because my wife said "What would you think about adopting a baby of another race, maybe a little black baby or a little chinese baby?" I want to be open to this, and I feel I should however my wife doesn't know something; I have a humungous attraction/problem with black cock interacial porn. I know, it's infantile and perpetuates this false myth, but I am ashamed to say I crave it. Nobody knows this. I have been watching that kind of thing for probably 10 years. And I realize that it has mad me a very racist person. I don't trust black men because of it. At first it was new and exciting but now it has made me paint an entire race with a single brush. I think this is because I don't really know any black people in real life, so this is my only contact with them. I know the solution is to quit looking at it, but I can't. I quite seriously feel like a person addicted to heroin. There is nothing that gets me off quite the same. I try to stop but as soon as the house it empty, the computer calls me and I almost never can resist. I need suggestions. Is there anyone with a similar problem or someone who has gone through a similar issue?