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My secret bi life.

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I feed huge loads to twinks, sissies and sluts I find on doublelist , Sniffies , Adam4Adam , and Squirt.org. I'm always watching porn ony phone, and searching for cocksuckers all day long, while my wife is at work . I meet these cocksuckers in restrooms , underground parking lots , behind stores , at the adult bookstore , and in the bushes at the park . Anyone in Orange County California want to be my personal cocksucker then send me a message View attachment 68727991View attachment 68727821
I need you here in CT!
 
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I don't know if this is the right thread to say all this. And sorry for my grammar and wording since I'm non-native speaker.
...I find myself more gay than bi. Well at times I'm interested in female tits and curious about what it feels like to actually eat a pussy from what I see in porn. However, I don't necessarily feel like I have to try it. I mean I'm more interested in guys anyways. And I come from an SE Asian country, and a conservative traditional family so I kinda have to get married and live a double life but I'm not sure if I can get my dick up everytime I see my naked wife. Well today would do.. but what about 2 3 or 5 years later would the marriage work... I mean I could just move far away from my family and visit them a few times a year, but my family kinda... has many internal conflicts and I fear if I move away and not get married at all to satisfy my dad's wishes it's gonna fall apart. I know not all of you may be able to understand this because of cultural difference. We're called complicated Asians for a reason.
... I hope you guys don't judge me. Well it's weird to be confiding in strangers on a LPSG forum, but.. yeah I have endured the distress for years. I'm 26 now still a virgin, trying to be a good family man.
I am Turkish and family means a lot for us. But remember this! Everyone in this world leaves for his/her own happiness!!! Do not scarify your happiness to make other happy! Otherwise you will end up unhappy self! Unhappy wife! And unhappy kids! None of you deserve it!
 

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How is it that I've never heard of any of this?! I've always lived the suburbs. Then again I'm not married with children.
I have no idea… suburban area, lots of young ish white dads. Looking to suck some dick on the side of their marriage. It’s a well off neighborhood as well.
 
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I am Turkish and family means a lot for us. But remember this! Everyone in this world leaves for his/her own happiness!!! Do not scarify your happiness to make other happy! Otherwise you will end up unhappy self! Unhappy wife! And unhappy kids! None of you deserve it!
Thanks man! You're right. I'm glad to have found this forum.
 
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Trulybig, talk about finding the most appropriate website for my lifetime! Let me tell you about me.

I am a married male with a family, children, enjoy sex with my wife as I have with other women in my past (and a couple of brief affairs) so no one would ever know that I am turned on by big penises and secretly meet with well-endowed men for sex. What significant life events led me in this direction? Many! But, I think there were several that definitely stand out.

I was raised with the concept that you date women, and eventually marry and have kids. So thoughts about other guys were never really a focus and repressed for the most part. In fact, if I had any thoughts about other guys I would feel horrible and hate myself for it. Nevertheless, my first male fascination was actually not size but public hair. I was a late bloomer and so guys that had a nice full bush of hair I admired and got my jealous attention. But this focus of looking at other guy’s penises at some point I began to wonder and notice the sizes too. I came across one fellow student in the locker room who had a really big cock and I was excited but also had a pit in my stomach how impressive it looked and how mine didn’t. My thoughts at that time were jealousy and thinking about how the girls would be intimated, scared, but also had to be respectful of such a massive penis. He was slight of build yet would have stretched any of those girls out to the hilt. So, I think there was a submissive side that I felt had to occur with anyone being involved with a guy like that who had a penis that big. Plus, I could only begin to wonder and imagine how enormous it would be fully erect. I also was extremely curious about what his life was like or how he viewed himself but was too shy to even get to know him.

A year or two later as I had matured, I read a sex education book that said smaller penises grow proportionately larger than large flaccid penises when erect .It stated they all pretty much even out in erect size. At first I believed this but then would consider that like the guy I just mentioned above was way bigger than my erect penis soft so how could that really be true? Then, I read some erotic books and I remember one was Fanny Hill where they talked about 8 and 9 inch penises and how big they were and fucked the woman way better. So, I got a ruler wondering what I measured.

I have a 5 1/4” long cock and about 4 ½” in thickness around. Not bad but certainly not very long. But, I still figured I was like most guys but nothing of the sexual superiority and prowess as described by size in those stories. I eventually also started reading things like Penthouse Forum stories where there were always a couple stories about some women having sex with a well-endowed lover and how much better it felt for her.

I eventually met a girl and we sort of had a friendship more that a dating situation. Nevertheless, one day we decided let’s show each other what we look like naked. We both stripped and she layed back and spread her pussy open for me. That was a great turn on so when I stood up and pulled my pants down, my cock was fully hard sticking up in the air. She looked at it with somewhat of a curious frown. She asked me, after looking at it carefully, “Does it get bigger when it is soft?” She was totally serious in tone. I laughed and said, “No, why?” She explained that her sister had a picture book of naked guys and their penises hung down much bigger than my hard one. That cut me like a knife even though she clearly said this innocently without any hint of trying to hurt my feelings. She just was matter of fact not understanding and that ended the experience (we were not intending to have sex). However, this incident began to make me realize that my penis was certainly not large erect and that there were much bigger ones out there. But, still I wasn’t sure if it was rare for only a guy or two to be very big. However, after that I was slightly reluctant to be naked in front of women.

The next situation that did occur was a wealthy friend having a party. His parents were not at home and he had a pool. A number of the attendees decided to skinny dip. I was reluctant but again I am not small or that different than a number of guys so I thought and I joined in. But, the friend when he stripped made it obvious why he facilitated a skinny dip. He had a big and very thick round penis that kind of stuck out from his body, not erect but still not the type that just hung down. It might have been because he also had a big set of balls and a couple of the girls clapped and laughed when he stood up to jump in and them commenting. It made me so jealous even though they were joking but yet in a way they weren’t. The women didn’t do this for anyone else and obviously his big penis caught their attention. It was also the first time I believe that I felt an urge and a real desire to touch it as well. I wanted to know how big it would be erect and already it was so much thicker than mine it certainly must of been formidable when full. But, these feelings left with me with shame.

As I mentioned, Penthouse Forum stories and similar magazines eventually had me masturbating to the stories where a wife or girlfriend would experience a much bigger penis and would describe how much better it was sexually for them. I really wanted to know if it were true, would bigger feel better to a woman and so many stories or books indicated this. It certainly seemed to make sense. I also wondered did other guys think about these things and especially the guys who had a big penis did they have a different life experience than me sexually.

I started dating this one girl (Karen) and over a number of months it was becoming serious enough that the possibility of us being married seemed real. I remember we were introduced by her Aunt who worked where I did, and the Aunt was the type that was pushy. Everything was going well until one day months later Karen and I were talking about her having lived 6 months prior in New Jersey. I knew she had dated and had lived with a guy named Dusty and I asked if she ever heard from him. You mean “Little Dusty” she asked. I looked at her inquisitively and asked what she meant. Karen explained she was only slightly taller than Dusty and so she and her friends joked in using that term. So, I said well that’s too bad I guess he was little all over accompanied by a slight laugh. Karen looked at me and smiled and said, “Well……………………..no not everywhere and in fact” she then made this eye rolling motion and added, “That part was amazing.” I turned red which she noticed and laughed making fun of me, “Oh now you want to change the subject.” What she didn’t realize was that I had immediately lost interest in her as I felt that I did not want to spend the rest of my life with a woman that felt so proud and happy about being with a much better endowed man in her past and forever being second class knowing my size in that regard to her. Now retrospectively I might feel different now, but at that time it is was exactly how I felt. I started coming up with excuses to not be able to go out with her and we drifted apart. It was not due to her, but I did leave the job and so ended that relationship.

Over the next few years I did date, had some sexual relations and penis size or my size was never an issue with any woman except wishing I was bigger in my mind. But, at the same time, I would also go to Adult bookstores or even purchase publications like Hustler and would masturbate comparing my penis with the bigger ones often in these various magazines. I did the same thing with videos. There were tons of men with bigger penises than mine and it was difficult to figure out to what statistical extent were all the great amount of bigger penises and many much bigger than mine. How could I ever really know what matched the normal male population. However, with so many in all these publications that showed so many men significantly bigger it certainly seemed like any sexually active person would have some experience at some point with a big dicked guy. Plus, in jacking off to these items it made me more and more desiring to experience being with a well-hung guy too.
WOW...I would imagine that when she said that...your dick went right down.....sad......
 

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I met my wife at a party and to make this part shorter, we dated, then lived together, and then married. That part from first meeting to marriage was about 2 years. During that entire time, I don’t think I gave too much thought to my secret size fascination or curiosity. Once we were married, at first, the sex was great. But, I can’t really recall when my thoughts moved during the actual sex act from my wife to fantasies about me having a much bigger penis fucking her. In any event, that became a dominate thought process that would lead me to orgasm while inside her. I envied what I imagined it would feel like to have a lot more length to be deep inside her or to be able to move back and forth without feeling (which would happen) like I would fall out. So despite being married and enjoying sex with a woman my secret fantasy often visualized a guy with a really big penis fucking or perhaps imagining it was attached to my body.

We had over a decade two kids and in many ways I led a normal heterosexual lifestyle. However, during all that time those male oriented thoughts secretly existed. I got a new job and we moved to a major city. Maybe a year after that I discovered an adult bookstore in a seedier part of town. I went to it one afternoon/evening after work and learned you entered from a back parking lot through the back of the store. In that back area were private video booths and in some ways it was creepy because guys would be standing around. I believe the first time I visited this place I didn’t realize why guys would be standing there. At the front of the store, were adult toys, and similar items.

The second time I visited this place maybe a few weeks later I believe I had some notion of what goes on in the video booth area but still it felt a bit creepy. I would just go to the front and look around. I saw a few other guys get change for quarters and then go back to the booth area so I decided to do the same. I entered a dark booth and there was a machine where you would drop in quarters and choose videos to watch on a small screen. It sort of reminded me of a parking meter. As the video came on and my eyes adjusted I saw what we now know as a Gloryhole between my booth and others on either side. One side was empty but as I looked through the other hole a middle aged guy was standing and jacking his erect cock while watching a video. He had a penis that stuck straight out and was somewhat thicker and longer than mine probably like 7”. I am not saying he was huge but the way it stuck totally straight out and fully erect I think was the first real erect penis of a live person I had ever seen. He glanced in my direction but then continued as if he didn’t care, didn’t know, or enjoyed my watching. But, it also kind of scared me with him possibly knowing I was watching. I maybe only looked for 15 seconds or so and then very nervously left. Retrospectively, I knew part of my nervousness was because I was turned on by his nice sized cock. Seeing a naked fully erect older guy in the flesh, so to speak, was very exciting to me at the time and I was angry at myself for not staying to see what might happen. But, the next time my wife and I had sex all I was actually imagining was seeing that masculine man with a sizeable penis standing there and then fucking my wife instead of me. The image made me cum pretty fast.

I believe I visited that bookstore a few times but never got up the nerve to look at others or do anything other than stay in the main area and buy some magazine. Then, one time I visited and another older guy started talking to me with some type of accent. He quickly whispered to me did I want to go with him to the cabinet. I looked at him and said you mean the video booth. Yes, he explained he was from Sweden and didn’t know what we called them. I was scared but went with him. Almost immediately when we were in the booth, he unzipped my pants and started sucking my cock. He did this for about a minute or two and then unzipped his pants letting them fall to the floor and started jerking his cock. I was disappointed to see it was actually smaller than mine and he motioned for me to return the favor and sit on the booth bench and suck his cock. I felt like I had no choice and easily accommodated the entire organ in my mouth not liking the taste or anything about it. I remember it seemed kind of oily and I felt liquid leaking and didn’t want to continue. Fortunately, he didn’t force it and I also went soft and so I just quickly zipped up which signaled to him it was over. I rushed out as well. Interestingly, when I got home I insisted on having sex with my wife (with her wondering what was going on). I was angry at myself and felt shame for what had occurred. Certainly, any fantasy I had was nothing like what happened and the truth was I had not been turned on at all by the experience.

As months went by I did not return to the Bookstore and tried to ignore any thoughts toward other guys. But, it just would come back to the same fantasies and so eventually I started exploring again. This time I went online, which now existed, to Craigslist (or similar sites existing at the time) reviewing ads or profiles from guys. More often than not, I might write an email and never hear back. On some other occasions I would hear back but with a few exchanges could tell the person was not a match. Basically, I only wanted to see about meeting a guy who could prove beforehand that he really and truly had a big penis. Although one might think it was easy, I could never find someone honest and who met what I desired. Of course, one other problem was me because I couldn’t exactly state what I would or wouldn’t do if meeting someone.

It could have been a good year of frustrations until one guy I was communicating with suggested I meet with a professional instead. That had never occurred to me. I was advised of another website where guys did advertise and some included their nude photos with some really huge penises. I would look at their pictures which not only made me feel so inferior combined with admiration. Several of these guys literally were twice as big as me so it now came down to would I have the courage to try and actually meet. I did a few contacts. Some had outrageous prices and others just didn’t feel like they would be a comfortable choice.

Then I reached out to Tim. He only had one or two photos and the content of his ad and pricing seemed reasonable. He was not the type to waste a lot of time with back and forth communication. Instead, he asked for me to schedule a time and date to visit him at his place. Of course I was fearful, but I had already decided that I need to do this at least once.

Tim actually lived in an upscale development which surprised me. It made me realize that this was real and not just fantasy any longer. I was about to meet a well endowed pro. When Tim opened the door, I was surprised to see a guy older than me and a few inches shorter than myself, clean cut, personable, and medium build. He was dressed in shorts and a tee-shirt, quickly closed the door after I entered and instructed me to knee before him where he had already had placed a couple pillows on the floor. I didn’t have time to really think and found myself just following his instructions. “Pull them down” he instructed and I reached and yanked down his shorts. He wore no underwear and an amazing thick long uncut cock was the type of wide foreskin that didn’t cover the head as much as surround it. It was beautiful and I am sure I commented how big it was and still pretty soft. He pulled my head toward it and said “Suck it.” I grasped it in my hand and it felt so full and squishy. When I put him in my mouth it felt like I was a baby sucking a baby bottle as I closed my eyes and just felt comforted. Holding it with one hand and tugging on it with my mouth I was amazed at how good it felt to have all this masculinity that was so pliable and stretchy to suck. I could feel it expanding and it was a wonderful sensation to feel. Plus, unlike the guy at the video booth, this was a very big penis and extremely exciting to touch and suck. I could feel the foreskin move about and it was easy to also jack it because there was so much of it having now grown very big and long. I stood up and he grabbed my cock and moved it next to his. I looked down and the size difference was startling. Actually, there was no comparison and my first thought was how anyone could ever say that his penis would feel like mine in fucking. It was a ridiculous notion. His penis being so much bigger and thicker obviously would create way different sensations than mine. Plus, it just looked so much more impressive and better. I sort of wanted to slap the faces of every person who ever said size didn’t matter. No one would have said that when seeing our two penises held together.

Tim now instructed me to move over to a couch and sit down. He stood there in front of me with his huge penis in my face. I immediately began sucking it again and it was easy now with me sitting and him standing. I can’t begin to describe the overwhelming feeling I had getting to touch and experience a big penis like his. The sexual energy that big dick produced, the pulsing, the fullness of it all caused me to imagine that a woman would want to be fucked by it. I felt like I understood the female role when confronted with a big masculine perhaps intimidating penis to them because I was feeling the same way. As If Tim could read my mind, he said lay back. Actually, before I even moved Tim sort of pushed me back and got right between my legs. I knew what he was planning and said you need to use a condom. Tim explained that because he was uncircumcised it would go in a bit easier and would feel better for me. I was caught up in that moment and whether it was stupid or not, I told him to fuck me.

Now, let me remind anyone reading this, I had never ever done anything like this. But, the turn on from seeing this huge penis and the effect it had sexually I was too excited to be rational. Now for another surprise. Tim took that huge organ and gently pressed and I could feel him sliding in rather easily. In fact, Tim commented, “This was easier than I thought.” He began fucking me and I loved my role in this encounter. He was the alpha male and I was his submissive small cocked male subservient to the superior manhood. It was right, correct, and made total sense. Plus, it felt good. I grabbed my cock finding it fully erect and started jacking it. Tim sort of lifted up and began a pounding of me and I could feel his balls slap my ass and he was giving me the fucking of my life. I knew I could never fuck my wife like he was fucking me with such power, long strokes, and energy. It didn’t take long as I could feel that cycle of pleasure within me building to an orgasm. I found myself in the heat of this sexual encounter talking out loud about how much of a better man he was , how much bigger that dick of his was, how mine would never be able to compete, all of this turning myself on even more. Finally, I let out an uncontrollable loud moan as I had the most intensive orgasm of my life. Tim gave me a few moments to end that sensation and then pulled out and came on my stomach. He stood up and I could see this thick long manhood and was amazed at myself for having accommodated so much without discomfort.

Tim walked away to his bathroom and I could hear him pee and then washing up. I now felt embarrassed and quickly got up putting my clothes on as quickly as I could. So by the time Tim came out, I was already dressed and shyly made an exit after putting the money envelope on a table near the door. Tim told me to call him anytime.

When I got home, I was so sexually turned on that I grabbed my wife and fucked her as best that I could. I don’t know what I was trying to prove to myself as my secret images during the act was only about all the occurred with Tim.

Since that experience I have met Tim over a year I think 3 other times. But, I have also expanded my horizons. I have met several different guys some who have cocks a bit larger but not at the Tim level where we have sucked each other’s cocks. I have to say all these guys do it better than my wife. But, the most recent experience was with another black professional. His penis was even bigger than Tim’s but his behavior and area where he hosted not anywhere near as friendly or comfortable. But, again seeing the very large penis definitely makes me fully understand that any of us average guys are simply not in the same sexual league. Tell yourself what you want if you are an average sized heterosexual male, but I guarantee you a very well-hung guy can fuck your woman way different and better. It is just an obvious fact.

I have kept all of this a secret from my wife of course. And, I think you can be bi or gay and still enjoy sex with both men and woman depending upon what it is you like in particular with each.

So reader's, what are your thoughts on all I have shared?
Hey trulybig, just read both your posts. You have courage and honesty on your side, and are unafraid to make yourself vulnerable in seeking to understand what only seems to have started as curiosity.

Society is accountable for our guilt, of course, not any moral wrongdoing. I had the same feelings of guilt and denial at first (16-18 years old), until I realized that my "curiosity" was an undeniable burning desire for the male form.

Of course a bisexual man can and should enjoy both sexes. On the issue of keeping it secret from your wife, that's strictly a personal choice, and while many may generally suggest you must be honest and let her know, I'm really not so sure it's the best choice. If she were to catch you in the act, or find out another way, it would damage the relationship as only you can understand, so I'd be very very careful to avoid that situation and her devastation (a difficult thing to avoid for sure).

You know in your core how fulfilled you felt submitting to a hung, dominant partner. The same occurs for those who feel particular fulfillment from exhibiting and confirming their male prowess, their large lower unit. Nothing turns me on more than for my partner to be turned on by me, and especially when he's submissive and loving that role, gaining satisfaction and feeling whole as a result.

High compliments for understanding yourself, and the willingness to admit to yourself who you are and what you truly feel, what you need, and yet honoring your commitment to stay by your family's side. Some may condemn your choice, and its one I thankfully avoided (came close). Looks to me like you've found your balance.