I met my wife at a party and to make this part shorter, we dated, then lived together, and then married. That part from first meeting to marriage was about 2 years. During that entire time, I don’t think I gave too much thought to my secret size fascination or curiosity. Once we were married, at first, the sex was great. But, I can’t really recall when my thoughts moved during the actual sex act from my wife to fantasies about me having a much bigger penis fucking her. In any event, that became a dominate thought process that would lead me to orgasm while inside her. I envied what I imagined it would feel like to have a lot more length to be deep inside her or to be able to move back and forth without feeling (which would happen) like I would fall out. So despite being married and enjoying sex with a woman my secret fantasy often visualized a guy with a really big penis fucking or perhaps imagining it was attached to my body.
We had over a decade two kids and in many ways I led a normal heterosexual lifestyle. However, during all that time those male oriented thoughts secretly existed. I got a new job and we moved to a major city. Maybe a year after that I discovered an adult bookstore in a seedier part of town. I went to it one afternoon/evening after work and learned you entered from a back parking lot through the back of the store. In that back area were private video booths and in some ways it was creepy because guys would be standing around. I believe the first time I visited this place I didn’t realize why guys would be standing there. At the front of the store, were adult toys, and similar items.
The second time I visited this place maybe a few weeks later I believe I had some notion of what goes on in the video booth area but still it felt a bit creepy. I would just go to the front and look around. I saw a few other guys get change for quarters and then go back to the booth area so I decided to do the same. I entered a dark booth and there was a machine where you would drop in quarters and choose videos to watch on a small screen. It sort of reminded me of a parking meter. As the video came on and my eyes adjusted I saw what we now know as a Gloryhole between my booth and others on either side. One side was empty but as I looked through the other hole a middle aged guy was standing and jacking his erect cock while watching a video. He had a penis that stuck straight out and was somewhat thicker and longer than mine probably like 7”. I am not saying he was huge but the way it stuck totally straight out and fully erect I think was the first real erect penis of a live person I had ever seen. He glanced in my direction but then continued as if he didn’t care, didn’t know, or enjoyed my watching. But, it also kind of scared me with him possibly knowing I was watching. I maybe only looked for 15 seconds or so and then very nervously left. Retrospectively, I knew part of my nervousness was because I was turned on by his nice sized cock. Seeing a naked fully erect older guy in the flesh, so to speak, was very exciting to me at the time and I was angry at myself for not staying to see what might happen. But, the next time my wife and I had sex all I was actually imagining was seeing that masculine man with a sizeable penis standing there and then fucking my wife instead of me. The image made me cum pretty fast.
I believe I visited that bookstore a few times but never got up the nerve to look at others or do anything other than stay in the main area and buy some magazine. Then, one time I visited and another older guy started talking to me with some type of accent. He quickly whispered to me did I want to go with him to the cabinet. I looked at him and said you mean the video booth. Yes, he explained he was from Sweden and didn’t know what we called them. I was scared but went with him. Almost immediately when we were in the booth, he unzipped my pants and started sucking my cock. He did this for about a minute or two and then unzipped his pants letting them fall to the floor and started jerking his cock. I was disappointed to see it was actually smaller than mine and he motioned for me to return the favor and sit on the booth bench and suck his cock. I felt like I had no choice and easily accommodated the entire organ in my mouth not liking the taste or anything about it. I remember it seemed kind of oily and I felt liquid leaking and didn’t want to continue. Fortunately, he didn’t force it and I also went soft and so I just quickly zipped up which signaled to him it was over. I rushed out as well. Interestingly, when I got home I insisted on having sex with my wife (with her wondering what was going on). I was angry at myself and felt shame for what had occurred. Certainly, any fantasy I had was nothing like what happened and the truth was I had not been turned on at all by the experience.
As months went by I did not return to the Bookstore and tried to ignore any thoughts toward other guys. But, it just would come back to the same fantasies and so eventually I started exploring again. This time I went online, which now existed, to Craigslist (or similar sites existing at the time) reviewing ads or profiles from guys. More often than not, I might write an email and never hear back. On some other occasions I would hear back but with a few exchanges could tell the person was not a match. Basically, I only wanted to see about meeting a guy who could prove beforehand that he really and truly had a big penis. Although one might think it was easy, I could never find someone honest and who met what I desired. Of course, one other problem was me because I couldn’t exactly state what I would or wouldn’t do if meeting someone.
It could have been a good year of frustrations until one guy I was communicating with suggested I meet with a professional instead. That had never occurred to me. I was advised of another website where guys did advertise and some included their nude photos with some really huge penises. I would look at their pictures which not only made me feel so inferior combined with admiration. Several of these guys literally were twice as big as me so it now came down to would I have the courage to try and actually meet. I did a few contacts. Some had outrageous prices and others just didn’t feel like they would be a comfortable choice.
Then I reached out to Tim. He only had one or two photos and the content of his ad and pricing seemed reasonable. He was not the type to waste a lot of time with back and forth communication. Instead, he asked for me to schedule a time and date to visit him at his place. Of course I was fearful, but I had already decided that I need to do this at least once.
Tim actually lived in an upscale development which surprised me. It made me realize that this was real and not just fantasy any longer. I was about to meet a well endowed pro. When Tim opened the door, I was surprised to see a guy older than me and a few inches shorter than myself, clean cut, personable, and medium build. He was dressed in shorts and a tee-shirt, quickly closed the door after I entered and instructed me to knee before him where he had already had placed a couple pillows on the floor. I didn’t have time to really think and found myself just following his instructions. “Pull them down” he instructed and I reached and yanked down his shorts. He wore no underwear and an amazing thick long uncut cock was the type of wide foreskin that didn’t cover the head as much as surround it. It was beautiful and I am sure I commented how big it was and still pretty soft. He pulled my head toward it and said “Suck it.” I grasped it in my hand and it felt so full and squishy. When I put him in my mouth it felt like I was a baby sucking a baby bottle as I closed my eyes and just felt comforted. Holding it with one hand and tugging on it with my mouth I was amazed at how good it felt to have all this masculinity that was so pliable and stretchy to suck. I could feel it expanding and it was a wonderful sensation to feel. Plus, unlike the guy at the video booth, this was a very big penis and extremely exciting to touch and suck. I could feel the foreskin move about and it was easy to also jack it because there was so much of it having now grown very big and long. I stood up and he grabbed my cock and moved it next to his. I looked down and the size difference was startling. Actually, there was no comparison and my first thought was how anyone could ever say that his penis would feel like mine in fucking. It was a ridiculous notion. His penis being so much bigger and thicker obviously would create way different sensations than mine. Plus, it just looked so much more impressive and better. I sort of wanted to slap the faces of every person who ever said size didn’t matter. No one would have said that when seeing our two penises held together.
Tim now instructed me to move over to a couch and sit down. He stood there in front of me with his huge penis in my face. I immediately began sucking it again and it was easy now with me sitting and him standing. I can’t begin to describe the overwhelming feeling I had getting to touch and experience a big penis like his. The sexual energy that big dick produced, the pulsing, the fullness of it all caused me to imagine that a woman would want to be fucked by it. I felt like I understood the female role when confronted with a big masculine perhaps intimidating penis to them because I was feeling the same way. As If Tim could read my mind, he said lay back. Actually, before I even moved Tim sort of pushed me back and got right between my legs. I knew what he was planning and said you need to use a condom. Tim explained that because he was uncircumcised it would go in a bit easier and would feel better for me. I was caught up in that moment and whether it was stupid or not, I told him to fuck me.
Now, let me remind anyone reading this, I had never ever done anything like this. But, the turn on from seeing this huge penis and the effect it had sexually I was too excited to be rational. Now for another surprise. Tim took that huge organ and gently pressed and I could feel him sliding in rather easily. In fact, Tim commented, “This was easier than I thought.” He began fucking me and I loved my role in this encounter. He was the alpha male and I was his submissive small cocked male subservient to the superior manhood. It was right, correct, and made total sense. Plus, it felt good. I grabbed my cock finding it fully erect and started jacking it. Tim sort of lifted up and began a pounding of me and I could feel his balls slap my ass and he was giving me the fucking of my life. I knew I could never fuck my wife like he was fucking me with such power, long strokes, and energy. It didn’t take long as I could feel that cycle of pleasure within me building to an orgasm. I found myself in the heat of this sexual encounter talking out loud about how much of a better man he was , how much bigger that dick of his was, how mine would never be able to compete, all of this turning myself on even more. Finally, I let out an uncontrollable loud moan as I had the most intensive orgasm of my life. Tim gave me a few moments to end that sensation and then pulled out and came on my stomach. He stood up and I could see this thick long manhood and was amazed at myself for having accommodated so much without discomfort.
Tim walked away to his bathroom and I could hear him pee and then washing up. I now felt embarrassed and quickly got up putting my clothes on as quickly as I could. So by the time Tim came out, I was already dressed and shyly made an exit after putting the money envelope on a table near the door. Tim told me to call him anytime.
When I got home, I was so sexually turned on that I grabbed my wife and fucked her as best that I could. I don’t know what I was trying to prove to myself as my secret images during the act was only about all the occurred with Tim.
Since that experience I have met Tim over a year I think 3 other times. But, I have also expanded my horizons. I have met several different guys some who have cocks a bit larger but not at the Tim level where we have sucked each other’s cocks. I have to say all these guys do it better than my wife. But, the most recent experience was with another black professional. His penis was even bigger than Tim’s but his behavior and area where he hosted not anywhere near as friendly or comfortable. But, again seeing the very large penis definitely makes me fully understand that any of us average guys are simply not in the same sexual league. Tell yourself what you want if you are an average sized heterosexual male, but I guarantee you a very well-hung guy can fuck your woman way different and better. It is just an obvious fact.
I have kept all of this a secret from my wife of course. And, I think you can be bi or gay and still enjoy sex with both men and woman depending upon what it is you like in particular with each.
So reader's, what are your thoughts on all I have shared?
