My Story

[nakedwally]

Sometimes I wonder what the point is to keep on going, lately my life has not been so pleasant. The debts always seem to be high and the funds always low. I have been through so much crap in my life. I wanted to share a bit of my story cause I know that others can be helped from my own personal experience.

*Some names have been changed to respect privacy





I started out on my own in life at the young age of 16 (July 1997), At that time I ran away and moved in with a friend of mine from school he was 19. I stayed there for a few months but then he asked me to leave cause I wouldn't have sex with him ( I was still a virgin at the time). I did the only thing a throw away/run away youth in Fort Lauderdale,FL could do I want to Covenant House, there they took me in with open arms. I was still attending school at the time. I received counseling and love, along with food and shelter. I stayed there til two months before my 18th birthday and then I moved into an all boys home. While I was at the boys home I had my first anal sex encounter with another kid who also stayed at the home I was the one that penetrated him, and I thought to myself I can't be gay I didn't take it up the ass. 9 days after my 18th birthday (Nov 1998) I moved into an adult group home and hated every minute of it. I moved out not knowing where I could go and that was when I met Sandy*.I had sex with her every day for 3 months and when I stopped, she told me to go. The night I left I found myself sleeping behind a dumpster. I was all grimy and dirty the next morning. I had about $50 USD left to my name and used $2 at Mcdonalds for breakfast and $1 for access to the public pool so I could shower in the locker rooms there. I remained homeless for the next 6 months and lost 120 pounds(before I became homeless I weighed 275 pounds) and got heavily involved in alcohol and prescription pain pills I finally found my own place it was in a trailer park and it cost $78 per week and I was earning $300 a week in cash I was working for friend of mine who owned a construction company as his administrative assistant. It worked out perfectly for a while. Then I lost my job due to my drug use, and became a male prostitute, I thought I can earn money for something I enjoy and am good at .Then my landlady found out and I got evicted. To fast forward a bit I continued to sell my body and use drugs continued to get evicted from where I was living because of it.Then I got arrested when I was 22, but that didn't stop me. I continued to sell my body until finally I got so sick of it I threw up in a guys lap when I was giving him a blowjob.

I finally moved in with my mother after my step dad died and got a real job working full time at a discount store. l would go to work and then come home and go to sleep on Friday nights I would order pizza and answer the door naked and end up having sex with the pizza guy or girl, they would normally agree after a $60 tip was offered. That's what started my at risk sex behavior, I had unprotected sex with 18 different pizza guys and 4 different pizza girls. I enjoyed the sex very much, but was not willing to face the consequences. I met a Brazillian guy while I was living with my mother and would get fucked by him every Saturday night in the backseat of his car. I just couldn't avoid the temptation he was about 10 inches hung and it felt so good, of course the drugs and alcohol didn't help my thinking very much. In September of 2004 I gave up drinking for good and have not drank since. I became homeless once again on January 5th 2005, my mother took my rent money and decided that the car payment was more important than rent. I quit my job. On January 18th, 2007 I tested HIV+ and thought my life was over, I wanted to kill myself. I had lots of support from church and was able to get lots of help.I met Bruce on February 5th, 2005 and we have been together since, I have had my ups and downs with life and have learned that I am not a horrible person because of my past, my past make me the wonderful person I am today. I have shared most of story for the past year elsewhere on the board but I wanted to focus on my past at this point in time. I hope that someone here gets at least a little something out of my story.

http://www.lpsg.org/44797-moving-to-florida.html

http://www.lpsg.org/43535-i-miss-my-loved-ones.html

http://www.lpsg.org/51262-yes-i-moved-back-arizona.html

http://www.lpsg.org/50084-enlarged-prostate.html

http://www.lpsg.org/52330-why-some-people-so-mean.html

http://www.lpsg.org/53328-i-am-ok-and-safe.html

http://www.lpsg.org/53712-something-happened-to-my-webpage.html

http://www.lpsg.org/44103-will-getting-oral-surgery-soon.html

http://www.lpsg.org/55903-the-marriage-of-nakedwally-ladygodiva1976.html

http://www.lpsg.org/51657-scared-of-my-illness.html

http://www.lpsg.org/64404-i-finally-did-it.html

 

[Principessa]

Wow! I knew most of your story but not all of it.

You are a survivor and a warrior. I am so glad we met here, for you have enriched my life, lifted my spirits, and been a friend when I needed one most. :smile:

 

[D_Hairy Reed]

Wow - what an entry. Wally, thank you for sharing your story with such candour and openness.

While I feel bad for some of the things that happened to you, I am impressed by your effort to take control and give your life a positive spin.

It's tough how life can be - how it can be nasty to begin with for some, or suddenly turn for those more fortunate.

My belief in going through life is that you just have to try to be a good person - and it sure seems like you are.

I very sincerely wish you the best of luck - and thanks again for sharing your stories, they are both a warning for not to do, but also an inspiration for not giving up and taking courage.

 

[chrisj428]

Wally,

Thank you for sharing so openly. While I've certainly been through my trials and tribulations over the last few years, they pale in comparison to the challenges you've overcome and it inspires me.

You know, people always say that God doesn't give you any more than you can handle and "If He leads you to it, He'll lead you through it" -- maybe it's a bunch of bunk, maybe it isn't -- but it gets me out of bed in the morning and steels me for the challenges of the day.

And, whenever desperation sets in, I think of the exchange between Kevin Spacey's and John Cusack's characters in Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil when John asked Kevin if he was going to stay in town after the debacle. Kevin grinned and said, "Of course. Me sticking around pisses off all the right people." Also, dad had a few words of good advice, manifesting itself in some bullshit Latin: "Illegitimi non carborundum", which he translated to "Don't let the bastards wear you down."

Hang in there, man. You've come a long way -- keep up the good fight!

 

[Not_Punny]

Wally! You should write a book!! This is an amazing mixture of gut-wrenching sadness and perky humor. (I'm sorry if this is an inappropriate response, but I thought the part about the pizza delivery people was hilarious.)

(I think this story beats Running With Scissors!)

 

[Pecker]

Wow, wally, how lucky we are to have you here with us.

 

[vince]

Hi Wally. Thanks for sharing your stories. I think we can all take away some lessons from your narrative. It is inspirational to read how your spirit has come through such trials intact. Your character is strong and your heart is warm. You are one of the good guys Wally!!

 

[Mr. Snakey]

Sometimes I wonder what the point is to keep on going, lately my life has not been so pleasant. The debts always seem to be high and the funds always low. I have been through so much crap in my life. I wanted to share a bit of my story cause I know that others can be helped from my own personal experience.

*Some names have been changed to respect privacy





I started out on my own in life at the young age of 16 (July 1997), At that time I ran away and moved in with a friend of mine from school he was 19. I stayed there for a few months but then he asked me to leave cause I wouldn't have sex with him ( I was still a virgin at the time). I did the only thing a throw away/run away youth in Fort Lauderdale,FL could do I want to Covenant House, there they took me in with open arms. I was still attending school at the time. I received counseling and love, along with food and shelter. I stayed there til two months before my 18th birthday and then I moved into an all boys home. While I was at the boys home I had my first anal sex encounter with another kid who also stayed at the home I was the one that penetrated him, and I thought to myself I can't be gay I didn't take it up the ass. 9 days after my 18th birthday (Nov 1998) I moved into an adult group home and hated every minute of it. I moved out not knowing where I could go and that was when I met Sandy*.I had sex with her every day for 3 months and when I stopped, she told me to go. The night I left I found myself sleeping behind a dumpster. I was all grimy and dirty the next morning. I had about $50 USD left to my name and used $2 at Mcdonalds for breakfast and $1 for access to the public pool so I could shower in the locker rooms there. I remained homeless for the next 6 months and lost 120 pounds(before I became homeless I weighed 275 pounds) and got heavily involved in alcohol and prescription pain pills I finally found my own place it was in a trailer park and it cost $78 per week and I was earning $300 a week in cash I was working for friend of mine who owned a construction company as his administrative assistant. It worked out perfectly for a while. Then I lost my job due to my drug use, and became a male prostitute, I thought I can earn money for something I enjoy and am good at .Then my landlady found out and I got evicted. To fast forward a bit I continued to sell my body and use drugs continued to get evicted from where I was living because of it.Then I got arrested when I was 22, but that didn't stop me. I continued to sell my body until finally I got so sick of it I threw up in a guys lap when I was giving him a blowjob.

I finally moved in with my mother after my step dad died and got a real job working full time at a discount store. l would go to work and then come home and go to sleep on Friday nights I would order pizza and answer the door naked and end up having sex with the pizza guy or girl, they would normally agree after a $60 tip was offered. That's what started my at risk sex behavior, I had unprotected sex with 18 different pizza guys and 4 different pizza girls. I enjoyed the sex very much, but was not willing to face the consequences. I met a Brazillian guy while I was living with my mother and would get fucked by him every Saturday night in the backseat of his car. I just couldn't avoid the temptation he was about 10 inches hung and it felt so good, of course the drugs and alcohol didn't help my thinking very much. In September of 2004 I gave up drinking for good and have not drank since. I became homeless once again on January 5th 2005, my mother took my rent money and decided that the car payment was more important than rent. I quit my job. On January 18th, 2007 I tested HIV+ and thought my life was over, I wanted to kill myself. I had lots of support from church and was able to get lots of help.I met Bruce on February 5th, 2005 and we have been together since, I have had my ups and downs with life and have learned that I am not a horrible person because of my past, my past make me the wonderful person I am today. I have shared most of story for the past year elsewhere on the board but I wanted to focus on my past at this point in time. I hope that someone here gets at least a little something out of my story.

http://www.lpsg.org/44797-moving-to-florida.html

http://www.lpsg.org/43535-i-miss-my-loved-ones.html

http://www.lpsg.org/51262-yes-i-moved-back-arizona.html

http://www.lpsg.org/50084-enlarged-prostate.html

http://www.lpsg.org/52330-why-some-people-so-mean.html

http://www.lpsg.org/53328-i-am-ok-and-safe.html

http://www.lpsg.org/53712-something-happened-to-my-webpage.html

http://www.lpsg.org/44103-will-getting-oral-surgery-soon.html

http://www.lpsg.org/55903-the-marriage-of-nakedwally-ladygodiva1976.html

http://www.lpsg.org/51657-scared-of-my-illness.html

http://www.lpsg.org/64404-i-finally-did-it.html

I The problems we deal with in life makes us stronger and a better person. They give us a lust for life that many dont have. A desire and inner strenght with a sense of being humble. Ive listed some of the things that make you such a great guy.:smile:

 

[36DD]

Wally, I am very glad I have come to know you a little. I think you are a wonderful person. The paths we take in life are what make us what we are. We can learn from them...how to love, how to accept, how to forgive, how to be strong, how to keep hope, how to maintain a sense of humor when nothing is humorous, and how to respect ourselves. I'd say you've done a good job learning these things and you are a better and stronger person because of it.

 

[B_Italian1]

I wish you the best and thank you for sharing your story. I've read your funny posts and never realized all the pain you've suffered in your young life. You bring a lot of joy to the members on here, and I'm sure you do the same in real life. I was kind of confused when I read that you've been with someone since 2005, but in your Florida post from this year you state that you are leaving an abusive relationship. Hope you are doing okay as far as that goes.

 

[D_Roland_D_Hay]

Thank you for sharing Wally...your story is amazing. You have been faced with so many challenges and yet you seem to overcome them all and still be a very cool person. You are a champion and one that I admire!!

 

[D_Sir Fitzwilly Wankheimer III]

You are a loser. You brought everything on yourself. The only thing anyone will get from your story is "don't do stupid shit" and if anyone needs to told that than it they're already a lost cause.

 

[crescendo69]

Your courage inspires me, Wally. Thanks for your story.

 

[DaveyR]

You are a loser. You brought everything on yourself. The only thing anyone will get from your story is "don't do stupid shit" and if anyone needs to told that than it they're already a lost cause.

You should have kept your obnoxious thoughts to yourself. Perhaps if you took time to get to know people on this board you would understand what some of them are about. I hope you are very proud of yourself . What goes around comes around.

Wally thanks for being so open and honest and sharing your story. I sincerely hope that you continue to enjoy peace with yourself. Sharing that could not have been easy and I applaude you.

 

[Bbucko]

REMOVED

Big_E:
Attitudes like the one you just spat at Wally only close discussion and discourage honest communication. I'd hurl invective, but you're not worth the energy it would take to consider.

Wally, as a fellow survivor I'll only remind you of something you already know: Only something inflexible and rigid breaks. The truly strong allow themselves to bend when the wind blows hardest.

 

[36DD]

You are a loser. You brought everything on yourself. The only thing anyone will get from your story is "don't do stupid shit" and if anyone needs to told that than it they're already a lost cause.

Why am I always continually amazed at the lack of compassion or common decency in people who respond in this manner? Maybe someday you will be met with such pain in your life and someone will respond to you this way. I feel sorry for you, I feel nothing but respect for Wally.

 

[D_Roland_D_Hay]

Very eloquently stated BBucko!!

 

[D_Roland_D_Hay]

My thoughts exactly 36DD...

Why the hate Big_E?

 

[nakedwally]

You are a loser. You brought everything on yourself. The only thing anyone will get from your story is "don't do stupid shit" and if anyone needs to told that than it they're already a lost cause.

I know exactly why you wrote this, you wanted me to respond in a negative way, well I am responding in a loving way. I have learned to love and listen, even to those that are ignorant. I wish nothing but the best for you in life and hope you can have many wonderful things.

 

[nakedwally]

I wish you the best and thank you for sharing your story. I've read your funny posts and never realized all the pain you've suffered in your young life. You bring a lot of joy to the members on here, and I'm sure you do the same in real life. I was kind of confused when I read that you've been with someone since 2005, but in your Florida post from this year you state that you are leaving an abusive relationship. Hope you are doing okay as far as that goes.

Please read both moving posts to understand it a little better. I have put them below

http://www.lpsg.org/44797-moving-to-florida.html

http://www.lpsg.org/51262-yes-i-moved-back-arizona.html