I get what you are saying, Nala, but I still differentiate between the two things. For me the definition of rape is be forced into having sex when you do not want to. It's the 'not wanting to' bit I can't get past. I can fantasise about saying no and having my mind changed, I can fantasise a situation where consent is not requested, and so on - but I cannot find actual rape (where consent is withheld throughout the act) a turn on, not on any level.
If the fantasies I do have are what other women call a rape fantasy well then I guess I do - but that's not what I call rape. Sex is all about wanting for me - if I want my lover to control it it isn't about him taking it, it is about me giving it. He and I both know that.
And when I fantasise I know that. The thought of anyone (male or female) being made to have sex when they do not want to turns my stomach.
I know some submissive women who told me about their rape fantasies. To them it's all about power exchange, being out of control is their real turn on. I guess the 'ultimate' state of being out of control in a sexual manner is being raped.
It's not my cup of tea, I prefer to be on the domination-side of the bdsm-line.
The control 'issue' in bdsm is a bit ambivalent, the dominant is in control, but the submissive has the power to stop or pause it all whenever s/he needs it.
Speaking for myself, yes, I do have fantasies about rough sex. I don't know if someone else would call them rape fantasies, but I don't. Rape isn't fun, my fantasies are. :biggrin1:
I believe we think alike about what is fun and what is a rape fantasy and where you draw the line. I just know some people who'd beg to differ.