So, first time poster, long time(ish) member. I have been married 4 years and a couple months. Been together for 7 years. We have always been explosive and passionate, but old issues have never quite gone away. Let me start and i will admit i have not been faithful....ever with her. And i know thats wrong but on my admission, this is why. I am a nympho and sex freak. I need it constantly and need to keep it new and fresh. I love going to the bars, getting drunk and coming home and having drunk kinky sex. Dont get me wrong, regular, everyday sex is great, but to me, nothing better than drunk sex, women tend to lose more inhibitions. Granted i turned her into more of my liking, more tame when we first met. I did this to pretty much all girls i been with. My issue is, i need it constantly and it doesnt happen. I was use to girls doing whatever i wanted, buying me stuff, going out of their way for me and complimenting me. BUt my wife has never been this way. She is more down home and not into looks as much as i am. I do put a big emphasis on looks. I am 6'5 210, solid muscle, defined and 9x7. I have a great job, dimples and athletic. I need and want the attention. Let me add that I am, very, very jealous...from my dad. I am always suspicious but shouldnt really feel this way. There was only one questionable incident. It was, we had been married about 1 year, i had to move to a different city(lost job, and found new one elsewhere, while she was in graduate school). She had her graduate party, in her class was 30 girls and 2 guys(one engaged) the other not a threat, hopefully). But she planned to have fun, and i told her not to get too drunk. She said she wouldnt, but ended up staying the night there. Now i trust her, but insecurities and my own behavior think otherwise. She had stated she would go home(staying with her parents) but then i couldnt reach her. Now, i know i am "DOUBLE STANDARDING", but still, I got pissed when i couldnt reach her pass 1am. Now, i really feel she didnt do anything but still. Pair my jealousy and supsicious-ness and it sucks. thats the only time. NOw, i have cheated more than 30 times on her, but still. I know, i know horrible, but help me out here. I just feel i need sex at least, at least one time a day but that doesnt happen. Now we have a 4 month old, and she rarely drinks and all this. My b-day just happened and i waited 1 1/2 year to go out to the bar and drink and have a good time. she asked what i wanted for my b-day and i said, just going out and having crazy sex. Well we went out with friends and it was a blast. but while she was dancing with friends, there was a bachelorette party and they threw a male sex doll on the floor, she picked it up and started freaking it and took pictures pinching its nipples and holding the cock. that just pissed me off. i thought it was trashy and was like this is my b-day, chill out. i know, i know her first drink in a 1 1/2 but still. it took forever to find a babysittrer and set everything up. and since then, no make up day. i knwo we have great sex normally, but to me, nothing better than booze, porno and crazy sex. and no makeupday yet. it sux. Now, i'm just constantly agrrivated feeling everything she does is bad and wrong. I know a child changes thing, but i feel like i'm this great looking, in shape, well hung guy, and im wasting with a woman who doesnt' appreciate it. And sex somewhat has gone down as in, she more and more complains it hurts too much, she doesnt like doggy as much(never did too much) saying im too big for her and its hitting her cervix or spreading her too much. i cant help that. and we play with her vibrating dildo, she prefers to vribration, i like to fuck her with it, but she states she would like to have it even when im not there. But, i'm like, i dont even get enough sex with you, so if you have this all the time, and get yours, then i really wont get none.
help please
help please