Originally posted by rckftu2002@Aug 13 2004, 02:56 PM
Now that the New Jersey govenor has come out to avoid a scandal with his male aid, why do you guys think he did not discribe himself as a Bi male instead of a gay male? The headlines are " I am a gay American" I ask because he is standing there with his wife who I did not see him intending to leave, asking for her forgiveness, and he has two kids. I am a Bi male. Marrried with 4 kids. I don't want to come out but I don't identify myself with the gay world completly. Am I stupid or misguided?
rckftu2002:
Do we have to identify ourselves (completely) with the gay world before we consider ourselves gay? Some things about that world I can't accept/approve, but I have finally become able to admit that I am gay. I was married 29 years, have three children and three grandchildren, and have lived my life with conflicts and guilts. Having the children, however, has made it all worthwhile.
When I first became a LPSG member, I listed myself as "bi", because, hey, I'm a Father and had sex regularly with a female for 29 years -- that proves it! I knew all along I was fooling myself, but I'm through grasping for straws. I, too, am a gay American.
Governor McGreevey is going through hell now, but I hope he knows there are so many of us who have compassion for him and understand. He feels himself as gay, as I do myself, although we could 'get by' by saying we are bi.
You are the only one, rckftu, who can make the decision re. coming out. You feel it's more important to sustain your family life for the sake of your children and wife and that is to be respected and admired. No, you're not stupid or misguided, you're honorable and willing to sacrifice being your 'total' self for their good.
May the force be with you, my fellow LPSG and with Governor McGreevey and all others who have to live in conflict with society's standards.
Peace,
Luke, aka RoysToy