Well - I have finally cancelled the house on Lake Michigan I had booked to have my wedding in June. It was booked for the weekend of June 21 - the summer solstice and the longest day of the year. In lieu of the wedding I had thought I would have a three day house party at the beach but that didn't end up being feasible. Also cancelled the villa in Jamaica where we were to have honeymooned. It is just very upsetting to have the finality of canceling arrangements for what would have been a happy life well lived. A slap in the face and a reminder of what is not to be that I wanted so much. Well, it is done and thank God for valium and a glass of wine. Speaking of - sorry to whine, just very sad at the moment.