str8_nnj: A topic that is hard to discribe. I'm sure it falls into that catagory that everyone has an opinion..str8..bi..gay..curious..so it often draws critisism from all. Being married and enjoying the female form in all sorts of ways..(smiles), I often have the urge to explore...not in the sense of full blown gay activities (anal oral and other romantic ovetures..kissing hugging) but in masturbation. Being very average 5 1/2- 6..I find the idea of masturbating a larger penis exciting and somewhat fulfilling when I get that need to explore. I have found, as we all have, a source to read,learn, and try to undertstand here at LPSG as to the why's...the what's...and unanswered opinions of many. My situation is that to find someone who is confident,or willing and comfortable, to let me "explore" is difficult at best, or near impossible. I don't seek out gays with the sometimes overwhelming availibilities (yahoo,msn,and others) simply because I don't have or want other activities...you know the line.."possibly more"..there is no more as far as I'm concerned. So as not to invite unwanted or possibilites,I don't ..simple!! As far as finding someone who considers himself straight and don't want or need such activity...well there ya go!!. Using any discription to explain what I seek only leaves one to classify me as a "size queen"..(seeking larger?)...but as you can see...it's not quite that. I don't seek any reciprocation, just discretion and availibility. So I sort of fall somehere in the middle....not interested in developing a friendship with someone who's gay, but not being beleivable when explaining just what I'm looking for.