Why must they find a creature as ugly and loathesome as I admirable? At every turn there is someone, whether man or woman, looking me over, checking me out. I can't handle it. Ladies, gals, and girls seek me out for speaks, strike up conversations, and try to talk to me. They flirt and say things they surely don't mean, at least I hope they don't. Why does this have to happen to me? That is the only thing I have a conscience about, and everytime she looks at me I feel guilty, scummy, evil. Her eyes are beauty, her body is perfection, and I want her... but I can't... Why does this have to happen to me? Every time our eyes meet I feel sick, I feel bad... The only thing that can make me feel this way. What to do, what to do? This isn't something I can reject or debate with anyone, I have no idea what to do, or how to hande this. I'm a poor boy born in a rut. Someone Help.