There are many guys out there that are out and proud, and to them I commend their efforts and strength. But for whatever reason, I am just ashamed of my orientation. I don't really know why, but I work so hard to conceal it...and it's becoming more and more difficult. Today, I was at work, and working side by side of a co-worker. He's married, and good looking... well I glanced at his butt while another co-worker was watching me...and I felt the curtain of shame and embarrasment flood my face as I was caught looking at his butt. Not a word was spoken...and I tried to conceal it my best by averting attention to a seeming problem of what we were working on. I know that there's really nothing wrong with being Gay, but I just can't seem to accept it. I just turned 30, so I'm having somewhat of a mid-life crisis of being alone, not accepted, and not having a solid relationship with anyone There must be others out there like me. What do you do, or have you done for positive reinforcement of your sexuality, and self acceptance?